You said in another post that you have already apologized and that she allowed someone to put a gun in your face and allowed you to be come homeless. You need to realize how much this person has hurt you and let her go. You need to get help for yourself by seeing a therapist and getting on some meds for the depression.

Yeah. it's more complicated than that. stuff happened to her beforehand and she disappeared. the person that saw emerge was completely different than the woman I loved.
The woman I loved disappeared. she has allowed me to become homeless..out of some rage and hostility. Occasionally we talk she starts out nice then gets angry and blocks me from texting

I agree with Heidi, it sounds like it is time to move on.

You want to apologize to her, and that is a good sign! She does not want to apologize to you, so in her mind she either has done nothing wrong, or she is so embarrassed by it that she can not face you.

Either way, you have taken the high road. She may want to contact you later for closure, or she might no. Please do not make your recovery from this contingent upon talking to her, and by all means, to not make it contingent on her apologizing to you.

Gentle hugs.

How could she be embarrassed? she has asked if I was okay, things start out nice for a week..then she gets beyond angry. texts me mean and horrible stuff.on one hand she asked why should we work it out? the other she throws my mistakes in my face. I know I should have been honest and told her about my past, I was too embarrassed and ashamed the things I did. I know she feels betrayed and I am truly sorry