Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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klambo95 05/01/2017

Hi,

My life is hard at the moment. I dont think you would find here that isnt the case.

Some background, about two years ago I was diagnosed with prostitis and have been living with it constantly since. The main problem is the lack of sleep, I have struggled constantly with it since the pain started, keeping me awkae and making life rather difficult.

Im sick of being tired and not being abe to do simple things like getting up at a normal time and making plans before much later on in the day. If I know I have to get up it makes me scared and you get a viscous cycle.

Ive not really said this much before but I have gotten close to killing myself on a few occasions, thoughts of taking a dangerous amount of pills, or jumping off a high place just to stop the pain.

I feel pathetic even saying this and I am fully aware that this is nowhere near as bad as some other stories you hear, but im desperate.

The only thing that has stopped me has been what it would do to my friends and family.

I dont want to die but I am not coping at the moment and I dont know what to do

Thank you

jellybean423 05/02/2017

Are you on any medical treatment for the condition? Antibiotics? Antiinflammatories?

klambo95 05/02/2017

Yes, theyve treated the pain as best they can but so little is known about the condition and there is no cure, im currently on both antibiotics, Antiinflammatories, muscle relaxants etc. the pain can some times be manageable but the lack of sleep continues

sharaninmd 05/02/2017

Have you talked with a psychiatrist and/or therapist? I personally know that living with chronic pain contributes to my depression. I have had depression and anxiety for most of my life. I started seeing a psychiatrist who prescribed medication an therapy. If you are having suicidal thoughts, you should talk to your doctor immediately. If you continue to feel suicidal, call a suicide hotline or go to the hospital. Sorry you are in so much pain. I hope you get the help you need,

ThePepperMan 05/02/2017

I believe that there is a group here for chronic pain, not sure just how active it is. They may be able to offer more pain specific ideas than we can here.

That being said, ...

What sort of things can you do that are fun for you? Find something and try to "do it" at least once a day. More often if you can.

And please, never feel that others have it worse so it is not polite to vent about what is going on with you. The fact that you think about death says that is has gotten bad for you; so please vent away. If you need to GRIPE! YELL! SCREAM WITH ALL THE FORCE YOU HAVE!!!!! Getting anger out can be a huge step forward to recovery. Sometimes it forces us to admit what is truly bothering us, and then we can make progress!

klambo95 05/02/2017

Thank you for the words, I am trying to seek medical help, ive gone to my GP and they are giving me antidepressants, I do want to get better and know it will be a long hard fight, knowing there are people that understand this helps,

Mlrun 05/02/2017

Thinking of you. Know that people out here really care. I know good things are in store for you.

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