Depression Support Group
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Since last November I have been going in for weekly treatments. These treatments have put me off work on disability. One of the nast side affects of these treatments is depression. i already suffer from MDD so the treatments have just exacerbated things.
The wife and I knew that the meds i was on were not working as well as they used to, so in conjunction with my shrink and my family doctor we took me off the old meds and tried me on a new med, trintellix. I am in week 5 of the new med and working with my shrink to drag my ass out of this depression. Over the weekend the wife tells me she wants a seperation, we have been fighting a lot this year. My treatments and illness have taken thier toll on our marriage, she has hurt me tremendously yet all she can do is pint the finger at me and blame me for everything. She thinks my illness is not as bad as it really is, it can kill me if left unchecked.
I've lost hope, this has set me back so much! I don't have the strength or the will power to fight her anymore, I am oging to loose my house, my dogs and my marriage.
I dont want to live anymore
I know you have hope because you posted on here. If you had no hope you wouldn't of said anything expecting someone to respond and help you. So I am trying to help you. I'm sorry about your wife... I don't think she understands how to help you and as a human she wants you to be okay, but because it's out of her control she's trying to find something to blame. I was her with my fiance and It turned out I was the one pushing away. I want to tell you to ask her to understand and see you love her despite this situation and you just need her. I will pray that somehow she will understand. If not I pray that someone will walk into your life, no matter who it is, and give you hope. Remind you that there is something to live for. You can live for yourself and the idea of everything being okay one day.
Something so small as your dogs being your hope or your house. Hope is believing that what is not seen is guaranteed to happen. You don't see the reason for living, but if you try I have hope that you will be alright. I know it will be hard, but I believe you are strong. I am praying for you and thinking of you.
Thank You for the kind words and your thoughts and prayers.
The wife and I are still talking and trying to reconcile and get our marriage back on track. The new meds are now really starting to kick in to gear, the sessions with my psychologist are working and I am currently visiting with my uber cool nephew for a few days.
We have an appointment with our psychologist for this Friday coming up to start to work through all of the hurt and pain that we have dished out to each other this year. I am no angel, I am as complicit in this as she is and have said things to hurt her to.
I miss her, I love her and I feel like a part of me is missing without her.