I have never replied on your posts . I read them all.
Nothing about this is funny and we all get the point. I will just say this and then I won't reply again because honestly I don't think it would matter.

You continue to post the same things.. you do.. DOOM AND GLOOM AND AGONY AND DESPAIR ON YOU.

over and over again. how much you HATE YOUR LIFE... i could go on and on.

I want to say this..... and then I will go away...and I know I will piss not only you off but others... but I am in alot of pain too, so . guess I'm gonna take the risk.

Depressed. all I have seen from you for a very long time are posts about how much you DON'T CARE. how you hate your life and how much.. let me repeat. YOU DON'T CARE. YOU SAY IT OVER AND OVER..

you do it over and over again.. and you know it.

thing is.

I think you DO CARE. if you didn't care, you wouldn't be here.. posting........ you are in so much pain. I feel it. I know that others do. you are in so much pain....... and you are trying to laugh it off..... trying to be here and say whatever you can......because it makes you feel better in some way.. I only know you through these posts.... but my heart truly goes out to you. You are hurting...... Please accept the support that is here for you.. please do..
I wish you the best. I do. I know we all do.

I want you to get better.

LMT

Have to concur with LMT! Please rethink about taking meds or at least do start up therapy. The two together work well together and help a great deal. Wikipedias list of the psychotherapy so great deal of variety for you to try http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_psychotherapies

WoW!...and here I thought this was one of my more positive posts!!!...

ok... well.... ok....I'm speechless...so I guess I'll be back later...to post another repetitive post about how I don't care...because I don't ...but right now I have study for an exam that I am probably going to fail again...but ...oh heaven forbid...I should post about something negative.

I wonder if y'all know who said: "I feel bad enough right now to die..."

and no, it is not I - I am NOT suicidal; never have been!

... funny, I didn't take this post as negative at all actually, just as a vent. I go through procrastination cycles too. I just stand up and move.. sort of watch my body do the thing that needs done without the thought of, 'I'm moving my arm, now I'm picking all this crap up..' It's the thinking about it that is so exhausting and makes us not want to do the next thing.

Years ago someone asked me how I was doing this whole child rearing/ working all day/back home to child rear thing. I said well I don't think about it. This evoked stares for some reason and I had to go through the whole concept of quit thinking the thing to death for crying out loud. You can so exhaust yourself thinking about doing something that you decide you're now too tired to even do it. So get to it. :o)