I live in a very nice three bedroom ranch house in a quiet subdivision which would be for most people a dream come true but for me it is a constant nightmare and I am thinking of moving out. The problem is this house is my dad's---he is helping us buy it, but my dad is the reason I am such a mess with depression and mental illness and so I live in constant fear of him coming back here and hurting me all over again. I just dont' know what to do. My husband and son love this house and I am glad they do. For me, though, I can't function here at all and can only be marginally sane when we go on vacation since that means getting far away from my dad and him not knowing where I am. We have been here for a little over three years but to me it has felt like an eternity. Coming here was obviously a mistake since it has messed me up so badly. I just dont' know what to do. I feel like I should just move out until my dad dies, then move back----I dont' know.... I am just so lost...
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