Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hello, its been a while since i've posted something here. I don't know whats going on with my life anymore, i just feel empty or i feel pain or i feel sad. Days are passing by and the only thing i do is play videogames or watch videos. Both things makes me distract and feel better, but everytime im left alone with just myself i get in this pathetic state. Its starting to affect everything too. I always tried to hide it to everybody because everytime i end up talking to my friends i just end up feeling regretful about evertalking aboutit and constantly say sorry because of that. I feel anxious and depressed, its hard to endure alone but i don't want to bring anyone int this hole that im trapped in. I have thought about seeing a therapist, but i can't, its way too expensive and im under 18 so my parents HAVE to now About what im going trough. And thats one the thing i want to see less. My parents notice something, but they just handle it in such a bad way, they think that im tired and they wanna give me proteins whenin reality im just sad.they even insult me on a regular basis and are angry all the time, its so frustating to hear them scream. They even hate the fact that iprefer to stay at home instead of bein all the time outside "its not good" "you are not normal" "im gonna break your pc" "you need more hobbies" i know they care about me but they just make all pf this so much worse. I just for someone to hug me, and say "everythingis going to be all right, i care about you, you are great" i want support but i don't want to cry for attentions. There is also theself-harm proble., i want to do it! It makes everything better but i can't! Not in summer where EVERYBODY would see the scars. I really don't know what to do. There are times i enjoy myself and actually feel happy, like when im on the internet or when i hang out with my friends, but ifeel like as time passes im only getting more sad. I don't know what to do
I know that talking to your parents about depression can be super difficult.
Do you have a school counselor you can talk to? A lot of times they won't tell your parents and you can even get therapy for free.
Do you have anyone you can talk to about it other than your school friends who you normally try to avoid the topic with? Regardless of the answer please feel free to message me if you want to talk about anything at all :)
For me, getting on antidepressants and finding ways to cope with my depression (I really like puzzles so when I'm really depressed I do big jigsaw puzzles, color in intricate adult coloring books, or draw) was extremely helpful. As was talking to people who understood what I was experiencing.
You aren't alone and you can get through this. I believe in you.
Catherine
I have to ask this because you mentioned that you are unhappy when you are left alone with your thoughts. I, too, experience that, so I try to make sure I always have a plan, a list, a goal, something to be working toward. I deliberately try to stay out of my own head with crazy thoughts running into each other.
Have you heard of Victor Frankl? He wrote a book "Man's Search for Meaning." We all need to have meaning and purpose in our life to be happy.
Also, Ravi Zaccharias’ You Tube video “The Meaning of Life”.
I know this is a difficult time. But first of all, you are too young to be so defeated. You have your whole life ahead of you with endless possibilities. And second, your parents’ behavior seems to be having a negative impact on you, but you can learn a trade, get a job and move out on your own. Try to find positive things to invest your life, mind and time in.