I'm sorry that you feel that way.. but know that you are loved by everyone on here, because we care about you and want you to succeed! Look at life as precious gift that was given to us.. we can live it anyway we want, just as long we cherish it. So cherish life, think of all the good things that have come into your life. Yes itll be hard to see, but I know that there are always good things. Once you find them, keep gold of them and let them fill you with happiness.. you are never alone, we are all here fighting this battle with you.. yes there days where we feel in the dark, but we can get out of it by looking for the light and taking that first step.. "when we feel lost in the dark, look for the light. It may be hard to find at first, but its there.. all we gotta do is take the first step towards peace and happiness".. don't hate yourself, love yourself for you are a great person who can achieve anything. Don't give up hope!

i have times that i don't want to be alive anymore. i have three little dogs dependent on me & that's what keeps me on earth.
today is such a day.
if i can help in any way message me.

Welcome to DS and this group. You MAY need prescription medication ... that would be up to a doctor. I hope you are seeing one about your condition.

It took me decades to learn this:

Love begins with loving yourself. When people used to tell me that, I got angry. "Screw you .... of COURSE I love myself" was my position. I did not love myself ... I just did not hate myself.

OF COURSE the goal is to love and be loved ... but love is impossible to realize unless there is love for one's self to begin with.

Our culture does not teach us how to love ourselves. Our love FROM THE BEGINNING comes from the outside. Unfortunately, coming from the outside is not reliable as we get older. We find ourself where you are. 'Hey, .. were is all the love I need?"

BUT ... and I am SURE you can understand this ..... if we truly love ourself ... then there is NEVER any absence of love. We want more than that ... but self love is the 'seed' for all other love .. love we give (out) and love we receive (from out).

Your post shows it ... no happiness (no love) ... no confidence (no love for self), no thriving (no love), don't know how to get out of here (you can't ... until you begin to love yourself). Need to be and feel love/loved ... then love yourself first. EVERYTHING changes when you do. "Nobody does right now" ... you are right. You are living without love. "I HATE MYSELF" ..... that says it all.

Find a book on the subject . it will open doors for you ... your life will change beyond any expectation.

Welcome and you have made a great big step in the right direction by reaching out and connecting. I am often overwhelmed with depression from coping with severe disability in a world that is highly mobile and in the race for the top of the heap. It has been difficult to accept crisis that comes form such circumstances but reaching out here with my DS friends keeps me going.

I hope you very soon feel better and the friends you make here and the love your share brings needed healing to your life as it has to mine.

((hugs))

Good for you for recognizing your TRUE potential and the hurtles set before you. Everyone has them. These are yours, and you CAN overcome them.

But, I feel you. I never thought my life would be anywhere near as depressing. I'm pretty sure most people aren't where they thought they'd be. The struggles make us fully appreciate the value in what weDO have. Never forget what you DO have.

I'm very proud of you, already, for recognizing that you are not through yet. :-) There are many good accomplishments to come.

Welcome to a wonderful group with wonderful people.we are all on a path to somewhere,it's just that some of us,myself included,get lost along the way.Concentrate on the little things first,to thrive we must first be able to look in the mirror and not dislike the person looking back.if people recognize that you like yourself,despite everything else that is going on in your life,they will feel more confident in reaching out to you.For people to reach out,you first must be reachable,join a social group.a church,take up a hobby,anything that puts you "out there" to a section of the world you want to be a part of.You have taken the first step,don't be afraid to take the second,"the extraordinary lies in the paths of ordinary people",good luck my friend,I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers,have a blessed day,
Hugs,
Scott xx

Hi everyone!
Thank you for reaching out to me and leaving me your words of encouragement; I really appreciate it. I think I do need to see a doctor about this... I am already on medication, and it *does* work for depression as well but it's not its primary purpose. The trouble with it is also that until I take it in the morning, it doesn't work! It doesn't have a lasting, continual effect like SSRI's and such.

I had not taken it yesterday, and I didn't manage to get to the kitchen until the afternoon...

I have a pretty active life when I am not feeling "low." I volunteer, go to school full time, and am looking for a part time job. I truly do struggle with relationships but I know that I have had friends before and it is possible to find a good group of friends again. I am definitely going to try my best to have a more involved/ better social life.

I don't know why I feel so incredibly low sometimes (like yesterday). Thanks again for all your support!