Sorry you are in much pain. Are you seeing a therapist or a counselor? If not, I would recommend that you make an appointment with one. They could help you work through this.

yes i am. and she not helping me at all. she just sits there and act like she trying to understand . that it and i do all the talking i loosing help. thanks for the help :(

Please don't give up, please. I can definitely relate to you. I don't have any friends either, I'm introverted and I'm also single right now. The loneliness is EXTREMELY painful and debilitating. I found out that motherhood can be quite lonely and isolating as well, but my son is what keeps me alive. What I can tell you is that we have to learn how to be by ourselves before we can be an asset to someone as a friend or romantic partner. Some days I feel like I can't take it, but I don't want to give up on myself or the happiness that I can experience if I keep living.

I am so sorry that you're in pain. Sometimes what helps is finding things that bring you joy. I love doing yoga, listening to uplifting music, going to concerts when I can, and just going out period sometimes helps. If you give up on yourself, then everybody else wins. I've been through so much hell it seems unimaginable at times. I've gone through a LOT of hardships, but I just try to keep living from day to day. I'm not sure if you're spiritual or religious, but I'm spiritual, so prayer sometimes helps. All you can do is hope and pray that someone great comes into your life and that they want to share life with you someday. I know you feel like giving up and feel as if no one supports or understands you, but I'm here and I care. I hope you feel better. If you want to talk further, please message me and if you want to speak by phone just let me know. We all need support.

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Im sorry you are going through a rough time. Sometimes we need to change therapist .Finding the right one is the key.