I know what you are going through. I had to put my dog to sleep in April. I miss her terribly. I am very depressed as well right now. She was like a child to me. Let yourself grieve as long as you need to. Your dog was very lucky to have an owner that loved him so much.

It would bother me a lot too to have to put down my pet. They are family to people like us. Many people don't seem to understand that. But I do. So do others on here.
The only thing I can think to say is....they are in a better place now. No more suffering.
The same thing for people too.
It is a sad thing in life. Eventually, all things do that.
Keep your fond memories and funny little times in your heart. When times feel rough, pull a fond memory out.
Maybe in time, another pet will be needing a loving home too, some lost dog. I found my dog when he was starving. I gave him a good home. You sound like you gave your dog that too.
The old saying, " time heals all wounds" helps some. It may take awhile...but things will get better.
It takes time to heal.
My heart goes out to you. Many hugs to you.

When I lost my beloved first kitty cat I was a wreck. He was 17 and had a bad case of diabetes. I cried a lot. I also thought I would hear him or see him. My brother gave me a card which pictured a starry sky. There was one star that was extra bright and he told me that star was my baby. That soothed me quite a bit.

I will pray for you and your furry friend. Please take care.

Pets are family. Anyone who has ever had one knows that. It's hard to lose one. All I can say is that he's no longer suffering, he's able to run and play with other dogs, and he's grateful for the love you gave him for many years. He doesn't want you to be sad, he wants you to be happy. It'll take a while to get through the grief, but he knows you love bed him and he'll always be in your heart. It'll hurt for a while, but I know you'll get through it. Hugs.

I know the feeling of needing help & wanting to talk to someone about what you're feeling. It's helpful to talk it out to help you process the situation. My condolences for your furry friend. I agree, pets, do become part of the family & it's a grief all the same. I had a Pit (who was old & had to be put down) & I missed our walks & how he would cuddle with me & be my protector. I want another one, but there is a breed restriction where I live, so that frustrates me because Pits are given such a BAD reputation; but with the right person or right family, they can be such loving, caring animals like any other breed. I hope this post helps you! Take Care!

thank you all. its a bit better because i forced myself too go to work. i feel a bit lost i have lost my mind. the house is so quiet . my kids told me they will get me a new puppy when the time is right because they know im very lost. it will take time but i have something too look forward too. feel like ive been hit by a bus. thank you all for your kind words.