you need to be honest and forthcoming to your treatment program. Tell them exactly what you have posted. It's their job to help you with this.

I Hopfully can tomorrow .but I'm terrified if I tell them that I do they will send me to hospital :(

It's their job ... and going inpatient is not the end of the world. It will VERY likely be a huge step in the right direction. Have no fear.

I guess . All I know is right now if all the medicine In my house wasn't locked up I would be. Taking fist fulls of pills right now :( I just feel like a disaster

Please let the people who are running your outpatient program know about your suicidal thoughts. Yes, you are in a treatment program right now, and yes, they are more than likely going to send you to the hospital. In the hospital, you will be safe & feel safer than at home when you feel like you may be out of control. Usually, you will only be in inpatient for a few days to a week.

You are in this treatment program to get well and control these thoughts. If you downplay it, they will not be able to help you in the way that you need help.

I guess I can try to tell them tomorrow .right now I'm lying in bed freaking out because I can't stop my head all I want to do is kill myself and it's not possible tonight :( and I can't get my head to accept that and stop.program has. Crisis line for at night but I don't want to call because parents will hear me .and it's not like I'm going to die tonight anyway so what is the point :?

Get help. I know it's hard but being in a hospital, they can help you.

Hopfully ... going to talk to therapist at program today . I tried to suffocate myself last night . It was the only way I could fall asleep :(

I've learned that bottling things up and not being honest drives my depression even worse. You are already on here and you are making great strides to try and feel better , keep talking to people , I'm here if you want to talk , I'm an avid self harmed I'm never been in an outpatient program. But I'm here to listen

you need, to be honest and forthcoming to your treatment program. when you reached in your home talk with your outpatient treatment faculty they will motivate you. If you want some support from expert you can get help from RecoveryCNT they are really helpful and supportive

Be sure to express the level of pain in your IOP. That's what they are there for. They can help you work through it and properly assess if a higher level of care is necessary. Having a plan shows a fairly high level of suicidal ideation. You do need help. Don't hesitate to get it.

I ended up speaking the truth to the people at program .thry forced me to go to hospital and be admitted . I just got out today .i still feel suicidle but being in the hospital wasn't helping me at all I just felt like I was being held hostage because had no therapeutic treatments .so I tolled them I was fine and I got out .now I'm starting the out patient program again and my anxiety is going nuts knowing I will be seeing the same people who forced me to go to hospital tomorrow :/