Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
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I miss my boyfriend so bad. I loved him so much, the way I felt about him, just the feeling of caring for him and being near him. I feel like I made a huge mistake by dropping him. There is no way to get him back now. Really not possible. He did something to upset me and I couldn't handle it. He wanted to get together and talk and try to apologize but I was not ready. I just didn't trust him anymore.
Yesterday some really unscrupulous person thought I needed to get out of the house and go somewhere. If I wasn't feeling so sad and lonely I wouldn't have gone. It was this rich lawyer who is a counselor/facititator for our support group. I didn't want to go anywhere with him, as friends or anything becuase he is a facilitator and helper. When I got there, he was so drunk I was terrified. All of the people were really drunk it was so scary. He was talking nonsense and babbling, saying that he invited women from eight continents but that he manifested me. He had been texting me in the middle of the night, and people were staring at all of us in the restaurant. One of the other guys I was supposed to be fixed up with was drinking immensely and starting poking me and pushing me. I got really mad and started yelling at him, then crying.
It was supposed to be a way to get me out of the house. When I got home I was crying so hard, realizing how much these people sucked, and started to miss my honey so bad I could not stop crying. I know my boyfriend wasn't right for me, and I wish it didn't end up on such bad terms with us not speaking, but the love I felt from him was so profound I felt like I threw away something awesome after having that to contrast it to. I realize he did care about me, he was really sweet and tender, I just couldn't continue seeing him because he was too obsessive about me.
After this episode yesterday, I really am pretty jarred and disillusioned about the support group, it seems like a lot of really predatory people go to these. I had a feeling I should not join them, my gut was bothering me really bad, but a friend dumped out on me and cancelled yet again. Feeling bad, I took up this offer. I might have been better staying at home lonely. It hurts so much. I don't want to take these risks and accept 'help' which isn't help at all.
I miss my boyfriend so bad. I loved him so much, the way I felt about him, just the feeling of caring for him and being near him. I feel like I made a huge mistake by dropping him. There is no way to get him back now. Really not possible. He did something to upset me and I couldn't handle it. He wanted to get together and talk and try to apologize but I was not ready. I just didn't trust him anymore.
Yesterday some really unscrupulous person thought I needed to get out of the house and go somewhere. If I wasn't feeling so sad and lonely I wouldn't have gone. It was this rich lawyer who is a counselor/facititator for our support group. I didn't want to go anywhere with him, as friends or anything becuase he is a facilitator and helper. When I got there, he was so drunk I was terrified. All of the people were really drunk it was so scary. He was talking nonsense and babbling, saying that he invited women from eight continents but that he manifested me. He had been texting me in the middle of the night, and people were staring at all of us in the restaurant. One of the other guys I was supposed to be fixed up with was drinking immensely and starting poking me and pushing me. I got really mad and started yelling at him, then crying.
It was supposed to be a way to get me out of the house. When I got home I was crying so hard, realizing how much these people sucked, and started to miss my honey so bad I could not stop crying. I know my boyfriend wasn't right for me, and I wish it didn't end up on such bad terms with us not speaking, but the love I felt from him was so profound I felt like I threw away something awesome after having that to contrast it to. I realize he did care about me, he was really sweet and tender, I just couldn't continue seeing him because he was too obsessive about me.
After this episode yesterday, I really am pretty jarred and disillusioned about the support group, it seems like a lot of really predatory people go to these. I had a feeling I should not join them, my gut was bothering me really bad, but a friend dumped out on me and cancelled yet again. Feeling bad, I took up this offer. I might have been better staying at home lonely. It hurts so much. I don't want to take these risks and accept 'help' which isn't help at all.
But I would say there are people out there that can help and would want to be your friend. There are those that would actually want to lend their support to you and listen to your concerns. At least I would anyway.
I'm not sure what to tell you about your boyfriend as I'm not sure what he has done to you. But from your statements it does sound like you still really love him and that he probably still loves you. I do think if two people do really love each other then they usually can work through their conflicts together. Perhaps you could try talking to him again? I know people make mistakes. Maybe the two of you could rebuild your relationship? I only know from my own experiences in that sometimes you don't realise what you have until it is gone. But at the same time if you cannot ever trust him again then you will have to move on.
The statement, you don't know what you truly have until it is gone, this is a true statement. Many of us have to learn that lesson the hard way. But I have to ask you, isn't it better to be needed by somebody then to be alone forever? I am 30 years old, I have been single all my life.
If a girl showed genuine interests and true love towards me, I would count my blessings, because chances are, it will never come again. There is love, there is true love, and then there is the one. And no I am not talking about Neo from the Matrix.
People think our education is all over once we graduate high school or collage. But that would be further from the truth, we are always learning new lessons, consider this a new lesson, so that you don't make the same mistake again. I know its hard, but you can get through this.
Again, if a girl showed me true love, I wouldn't dismiss it so easily, even if she was needy. At least that is a sign that she truly loves me, and considers me the light of her life. Something I haven't ever felt because I have been alone so long. Always count your blessings...
Ashley