dont do that! cutting is sooo gross! think about that horrid blood. pills arent good either! neither is alcohol, but i guess a glass of wine never hurt anyone. take all sharp objects and just get rid of them right now! maybe call one of those hotline numbers. either way, stay safe.

smashing plates is fun! i know how you feel! when you are still in that place it gets so hard to give up the few things that still make you happy! i havent cut since before Christmas but i too find myself missing it! strange thing to miss really! hugs xx

I'm not too familiar with SI, though I've read snapping an elastic band or running ice on your skin can help with the urge. Hopefully you've posted in your SI group too. Hope you can get through it.

Mad:
I don't think you understand the complexities of self harm! its not "gross" its a coping mechanism!

First off well done for not cutting for a month.. that really is a big achievement and you should be proud of yourself

I haven't self harmed in over 15 years.. what helped me stop was things like exercise.. when I felt the urge I would walk and walk and walk until the urges became less severe... writing/drawing also helped release some of my pent up feelings.. and addressing some of the negative thoughts that come with SI.. epecially things like self hatred and the need for punishment

try something which distracts you... believe me I know how hard it is but it is possible to stop.. and the longer you develop more healthy coping mechanisms the easier it does become

i cant stand blood. my own or other peoples, its just horrible. the thought of blood makes me cringe.

From what I have heard, SI is very complex, and the treatment can require someone who is well trained in the subject.

There is a support group for cutters:

http://www.dailystrength.org/c/Self-Injury/forum

I do not know much about this group, if anybody here has some experience with this group, please reply here!

nohope18: thank you for clarifying SI to mad. yea i like breaking stuff and when i get into my rages i throw things. when i was at the hospital they said i might have to be placed on a mood stabilizer but my mom doesnt want me on any meds. im offf my anti depressants because no one cares enough to take me to the doc. it just stopped.

thank you ruby..i do like to write and i do..but sometimes everything gets to much thank i cant tthink
i rly appreciate ur replies!

i rly wanna be in an intensive outpaitient program

Your profile states that you are 17. That means it is not long until you are 18, and can call make your own decisions. It may be hard, especially if you are under your parents insurance policy, but it can be done. What you can do is (as soon as you are 18) call your doctor and make your own appointment and get there on your own! That way YOU are in control.

Once you get to the doctor's office you can make your wishes known. That means not notifying your parents; in fact they need your PERMISSION to do so once you are 'of age'. There may be issues like co-pay to resolve, but be honest and assertive with your doctor and is should work out more to your expectations.