Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Abaris 01/31/2017

I feel like I'm fightng a losing battle. I want so badly to feel something..anything really, other than this sadness. I feel overwhelmed trying to carry everyone. Bad habits call for my return and it would be so, so easy to fall back. I cry in the shower where no one can hear, so they won't know just how bad the hurt is. Yet, I force myself to put the smile on and move forward...but its getting so difficult. I was in counseling for over 8 years, I've tried the mindfulness, I've done the gratitude lists, the journaling...all it shows me is I wash, rinse and repeat...so to speak.

weeblewobble 01/31/2017

Why do you feel so overwhelmed and why do you feel like you have to carry everyone and hide your own feelings.

Abaris 02/02/2017

It seems the stress of everyday living is getting to be too much. Being the support for everyone, being the counselor, the negotiator, being the daughter, the parent, the friend, the coworker....just seems to be getting too too much. Maybe its just the weather and all its gloom that is contributing to this heavy and empty feeling. I'm tired of saying its okay, when its not. I'm tired of saying "I got this", when I don't.
I am just moving thru the motions of completion, without any feeling...just a numbness that seems to be increasing everyday. I want to feel something...anything other than this emptiness and hopelessness.
This is something I realize no amount of medication can fix, only time and personal healing and forgiveness of self for a past I have been carrying for so long. But the dilemma is, how far do I have to go to find this? What is it that I have to do?
I'm so tired.

Debbalina 02/03/2017

I know what you mean by the wash, rinse repeat. But maybe someday it'll stick. Hang in there. We can't think our way into acting differently, we have to act our way into thinking differently. I know its tough to wear a mask - but at least your trying! You still have some fight in you. Thats a good sign.

Abaris 02/03/2017

Thanks to everyone's support. I think...rather I've come to believe, dealing with a mental illness has to be just one of the hardest things to cope with. It's a shame society doesn't realize that.
Once again, thank you

TooMuch 02/03/2017

Big hugs. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. It is so rough.

HisDaughter 03/01/2017

I am very sorry! Some of us can relate to your struggles and suffering. Many people have suggested to me to read the book of Psalms in the Bible. The writer David experienced similar feelings that many of us experience. I also know of an organization called Focus On The Family and they have a staff of licensed professional counselors who are available to listen, pray, and provide guidance to anybody who calls. You can arrange to speak with one of their counselors at no cost by calling 1-855-771-HELP (4357). I continue to believe that God is the only hope we have, even though profound suffering is affecting many of us. I hope yo continue to be strong. You are very important! May God speak to your heart and give you His hope and peace!

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