Depression Support Group
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I recently became addicted to meth. Stopped that, but with issues.
I ended up getting majorly depressed. I have created all my life. Drawing, painting, yarn and alike work, seamstress, all forms of arts and crafts, you name it, probably did a majority of it.
I lost my drive to creat. I never did that before. I lost my drive for everything I loved to do and enjoy. Including my husband.
Medications don't work. Eating right and supplements do, but unable to afford them.
So I sit here almost everyday wanting to hurt myself bad. My mind gas accomplished this a few times. But, it's gettin to the point where I'm afraid of me. Between hurt and anger. Part of me wants to die. Curl up in a whole and just DIE!!! BUT, bcz society views my belief and the way that I am as not dangerous, they've never put me somewhere to figure anything out. Not a suicide risk, bcz I am incapable of doing so. But, pulling out body hairs, pearcings, punching my face to bruses now (like when I was 12), slamming my head into things..... as long as they don't see it, (when I tell them about it, they don't believe me/ except those that have but don't speak up).
All my self pain coping skills are taken from me. I can't find a balance, sanity, drive....
My body can't handle any more medications, they were killing my liver. So what am I supposed to do?
My clinic SUCKS.
It seems like to me you feel being pulled in every direction and not knowing what to do for your next step isn’t it? I remember I myself being a in a similar place such as yours.
First of all, yes congratulation on stop using meth. I work at a prison near by and seen may clients who used meth and has ruined their lives, but seen great testimonies of how they overcome by God’s help.
I have to agree with @Gladdmatt to seek a mutual group that willing to work alongside to overcome addictions. Have you considered seeking help in those various groups?
There’s always hope. If you ever feel like you cannot take this anymore, please promise me to seek help however and whatever way that needs to be done, if it even means calling 911. Your life is too precious and people around you and your family will mourn over whatever happens to you.
Feel free to reach out to me. Let’s talk. Praying.