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I am sick of this. I am sick of having OCD and not being able to take care of my one year old. I love him to pieces. I really do love him. I am sick of the feelings that i am going to hurt him, when i know i am not! I will NEVER hurt him. I have a fear of even being around him anymore. My mom takes care of my son for me, and it makes me so angry that i can't do it! I have these episodes of rage because i am tired of having other people taking care of him! It's unbelievably frustrating when all i wanted to do my whole life was be a mother and now that i am i cant do my job! I feel so sad for my little boy. He deserves a better mother. one that can take care of him. I feel so angry at myself all the time, i am sick of this.
Another reason why i am so angry is because my sons father was abusive. He tried to shake me while i was 6 months pregnant, while we were laying down and said don't cry to me again, and then he tried to throw me off the bed when my son was about 2 months old. the last straw for me was when his put his hands around my neck and said" i hate you and id kill you if i could!" I was holding my son who was 5 months old at the time.
I am now with my mom. I have been living with her for 10 months. It's stressful me and my son sleep out in the living room, i mean im thankful i am not homeless, but its still not the best situation for me and my son, I have no privacy and i get no space expect for when everyone goes to bed. Its frustrating. It makes me angry and depressed all the time. I just want to be happy, but i am filled with so much anger and sadness.
I was put in a psych ward 7 months ago, and it screwed me up and made my mind so much worse, i feel like a crazy person, and i am sick of being in my own skin. Im terrified of hurting my poor little boy, because of the OCD and my fears of being crazy. They have gotten so much worse sense i got out of that psych ward.
Thanks for listening, i just needed a place to vent, and for someone to listen. I feel so hopeless and stuck in my situation. :(
Another reason why i am so angry is because my sons father was abusive. He tried to shake me while i was 6 months pregnant, while we were laying down and said don't cry to me again, and then he tried to throw me off the bed when my son was about 2 months old. the last straw for me was when his put his hands around my neck and said" i hate you and id kill you if i could!" I was holding my son who was 5 months old at the time.
I am now with my mom. I have been living with her for 10 months. It's stressful me and my son sleep out in the living room, i mean im thankful i am not homeless, but its still not the best situation for me and my son, I have no privacy and i get no space expect for when everyone goes to bed. Its frustrating. It makes me angry and depressed all the time. I just want to be happy, but i am filled with so much anger and sadness.
I was put in a psych ward 7 months ago, and it screwed me up and made my mind so much worse, i feel like a crazy person, and i am sick of being in my own skin. Im terrified of hurting my poor little boy, because of the OCD and my fears of being crazy. They have gotten so much worse sense i got out of that psych ward.
Thanks for listening, i just needed a place to vent, and for someone to listen. I feel so hopeless and stuck in my situation. :(
Are you on any medication or doing any therapy for your ocd?
xx
No, im not in therapy for my OCD or on meds because i cant afford neither of them.
This is so hard right now for me....
I suffer from depression, anxiety, and body dysmorphic disorder which at this time has made me almost completely housebound.
I get angry at myself that I can't take my son places, go to social functions with him, etc. I am doing the best I can just as you are doing the best you can. You know you would never hurt your son, you love him.
I at one time when I was younger and a single mom, I was able to get medical assistance and found a program/therapist through that. You do need to see a doctor or therapist you are suffering so badly. Are you in a position where you could get medical assistance?