Without specifics it is a little more difficult to say but, when I was diagnosed with depression I felt much of the same. I felt constantly under a fog, a bleak numbness to everything. I would have moments where I would cry for hours for no reason. I felt isolated in my thoughts and alone. Whatever is going on, it is something you need to work through. For me, it has been with God. For some of my friends, it is therapy. Antidepressants are okay but they don't treat the issue, just the symptoms, unless you have a chemical imbalance.

You say you feel empty a lot and then you say you live in constant fear.

To me that's anxiety. :) Anxiety is a disorder where you basically live in stress and fear. You panic, you lose control. I think tantrums can be a consequence of anxiety.

So yeah, Could be depression or could have to do with anxiety. Finding out what the problem is is the first step, getting under the care of a good counsellor or doctor. then it's maybe talk therapy which is wonderful, and maybe can be medication. if you get medication don't throw away the talk therapy. Medication stops things where they are at and stops them from getting worse,but you do still have to resolve how it is that you have got here if you want to be cured.

And I for one had no idea. I needed a counsellor to help me find out and bring me back.

Hi there, sorry that you are going through so much at this moment. Must be daunting to face it all on your own. I'm not sure what has happened before but if it's affecting you so much, it might be worth talking to a counsellor or therapist about it.

You don't have to carry this burden on your own. I'm glad you downloaded it here on this platform. It's an outlet for you. But might be good to equip yourself with coping skills so that you are able to handle when intense emotions arises, which a counsellor or a therapist will be able to help. I hope this helps. Praying for you. God bless!