Hey bipolardoll, I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I can relate to some extent. I lived with my boyfriend. I had no job, no family, a few friends. He didn't work that much but even though we went out and did things all the time, I was still unhappy.

1. You have to tell him you're unhappy. Tell him again and again and explain it to him 100 times until he understands. If he really can't be compassionate, he isn't right for you.

2. Get help anywhere you can!

3. If all those things don't work, it's possible that you just need a new situation.

I had no right to be unhappy in Ohio. It wasn't logical. Even without a job, I still had so much. But it didn't matter! I needed a place where I could be ME. And I couldn't do that there. I believe, to some extent, that we have a path. Things that are right for us. When we get away from that path, it slowly eats away at us.

What has made you happy in the past? Was there a time when you felt you had a purpose? A sense of self? It's hard to rebuild but you can do it, bit by bit, day by day. The first step is to admit something is wrong and ask for help.

Much love to you! Keep in touch!

I am sorry you are struggling and you feel alone. I am glad you reached out on this forum. There are people who care and understand what you are feeling. Reaching out is a start to feeling better. I had everything going for me and yet, I couldn't find joy in anything so I understand your struggle. What helped me was going to see a counselor and getting on medication. Often our struggle is due to a chemical imbalance in our brain. With the right medication and counseling you will feel better. It takes time and work, but you can feel better. I knew I wanted to feel better as I can tell you do too. Take the step to see a counselor and discuss medication. I will be praying for you. Also, share with your bf your concerns. If he is the one for you, he will be open to listen. One main thing I did learn was to give myself a break and not be so hard on myself. You might also look into an activity you like, even an exercise group, just so you are not so isolated. It is important for you to not be home alone all the time. Please continue to reach out and where are here for you. Lots of Hugs!

First, good luck. I agree with caring that you want to discuss this with your boyfriend, but do consider how men want to approach things. He may perceive comments as criticism and be quick to say he's working to support you two and achieve a better life. So you want to provide some compliments, say how you appreciate him, and then think about how this could change or get better.

Consider visiting your family a little more. My wife is away but I am happy doing some things on my own. Making friends is fairly straightforward and How to Win Friends and Influence People still the best book. It sounds pretty conventional but think about counseling.

How are you doing this week? You have been in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless!