Thank you for sharing. There is no shame in seeking help. A School Counselor or a Therapist can even recommend a Doctor to get medical help. When things get beyond our control, that is when medication can help. Kind of sounds like Manic Depression (through best to get a proper professional diagnosis), because of the manic energy leading to insomnia and then the crash to Depression. You are important, and know that it is treatable with the right help. My Hope is my Faith, so you are in my prayers. I hope this was of any help. Thank you and God Bless.

i feel like that all the time. i wanna give up but no matter what life has to throw at me i have to keep picking myself up. its hard to keep moving forward.

hugs and prayers to you

You can do it. Every single time I have ever felt like this, I somehow managed to pull myself up again. I literally had a huge mental breakdown a little over a month ago, was so ready to end it all (I had been thinking about it for months) and I'm still here, new job, new routines, trying every single day to pull myself out no matter how many times I've been dragged back down.

Please don't give up yet. Hang in there a while longer. See what happens along with the rest of us.

Don't lose hope! You are valuable and unique. I'm praying that you could find a good counselor or Dr. to help you with what you are going through right now. Do you have one?
I too find hope in my faith, and am praying for you. Wish I could give you a big hug right now.