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i’m exhausted

karaaaa.03
karaaaa.03

i’ve gotten to the point where i don’t care if i get better. i know that i won’t get better so what’s the point? i’m not only sad but just so empty and numb it’s kind of scary. i have to drag myself out of bed or to do things. when i take a bath i stay under the water until right before that last breath because i don’t care about dying, and i don’t care about living. if that even makes sense 

Avidreader9559
Avidreader9559
karaaaa, Life can be exhausting and hard, but you know what? Life goes in seasons. Just because something is happening right now that doesn't mean it will be like that forever. After I lost my dad and my mom left, I thought nothing good would happen again, but I was wrong. Those were lies. Things are totally different now. Can you find something that you used to like to do? Can you hang out with some people that you used to have fun with? Find those things that give you positive thoughts and feelings so that you can focus on those. I read some of your previous posts. I would like to encourage you not to put so much pressure on yourself. Be you. Enjoy each day. It is a gift to you to be enjoyed. Watch the sunrise or sunset. Listen to the rain or wind. 15 can be hard because of peer pressure or opinions (they are just opinions though and you don't have to share them. :) )and because of hormones and lots of changes. Be honest with yourself about your feelings. Accept them as they are. Then find what you do like, what you enjoy, find something you would like to learn about or grow in your ability to do. Then focus on the positive. When a negative thought comes, stop it. Then think about the positive. My faith in God helped me to do this. When I was very weak, He was my strength, and I was able to make small changes along the way, day by day. Be patient with yourself. I can tell you are strong and courageous. You keep going. I will be praying for you. (((hugs!!)))
karaaaa.03
karaaaa.03
thank you guys. but it been like this for so long, as long as i can remember. and nothing’s changed. nothing will change
LastAcorn99
LastAcorn99
Love and hugs to you, Karaaa. I agree with what Avidreader9559 says. Hang in there, okay? Life does look up....but on our part, I believe we do need to step out and grab hold of it. Take care!
Avidreader9559
Avidreader9559
At 15, things seem to stay the same like they won't change. Once high school is over, you have more choices. You can choose to go to college or technical school. You can choose where you live and where you work. You can choose the kind of people you want to hang around. You can choose different kinds of hobbies. Hang in there. Keep being strong. Find something to look forward to. For me it was looking forward to going to a new city. Find something that gives you hope and purpose and meaning. :) Hugs!
Community LeaderWanderingVet
WanderingVet
At 15 your life has barely begun. One could say you have a FULL life just ahead of you.

Checking out now would be a horrible, HORRIBLE, mistake. You have no idea of all the happiness waiting for you.