IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT...........YOU ARE DEPRESSED

In life, we have little control over the things that happen to us. However we have complete control over HOW we respond to those things. Its completely your choice. Blaming yourself for things you had no involvement in will only hurt you in the long run. Its important to remember that YOU are in control of your life. The majority of us are so incredibly lucky. Because we have the opportunity to make choices/decisions to affect our future. for better or for worse we have that ability. People who live in underdeveloped countries often do not have that ability. success is a decision. A better future awaits... however weather you choose to chase that is entirely up to you ;)

It's really your fault in some sence. Only you choose how to react on every event of your life, except of cases of affect. So if you think that things were against you it's still your choice. Try to find the one who got into a situation worse than yours and help him or she at least somehow!

Jarod and Kathrirdred, You are both correct. Thanks. I did get caught up in something that I don't quite understand. It was not my fault, and I should not blame myself anymore. I do live in a developed country. I often think of the poor people on the southern border, wanting to claim asylum. Or people in other countries victims of natural disasters, and terrorism.

Quite frankly the news does not help my train of thought. The news stories that really get to me are when normal people become unglued all of a sudden. Ah well.. I can't control other people's actions, just my own.

I am a person who tries to remain semi honest with myself. I know that my reaction and thoughts in situations cause me a lot of pain. I am not sure why I do it. Maybe I am punishing myself on purpose. Not sure.

In any case, I do gravitate to hopelessness. Simply can get depressed.