i am just like you. MeAndMy Dog. i had my little Rocky & no family or friends to keep me company ever. then Rocky died in December. the landord wont let me get a new dog, but im moving to my dads old house i inherited after its fixed up before 9/30. My 2nd cousin/contractor destoyed dads house, its a long story. Now today my lawyer told me in looking up his background so i could sue him, HE'S A REGISTERED SEX OFFENDER! Hang in there. if i can thru all that's happened to me in the past year, i have faith that you can too go too. i really have never wanted to live, but i made it to 57. You have my prayers & heartfelt wishes that you will feel better soon. it never goes away, we have to fight every day. You gptta stay here for your dog. i didnt read your Journal so i dont know your story, but if you have a dog, you cant leave them, no matter how bad life sucks. love, peace & hugs to you. ReeRoose

I know the feeling, all too well. I'm litterally just coming out of it for the day. Please ask yourself if that's really true. Does the bad really outweigh the good and all the potential for good? Also, you and your dog look super cute.

One of my biggest quick fixes is to take something about my life, ANYTHING, and make it better.

It could be as simple as making my bed. It can be as time consuming as cleaning the house. (OK, more like cleaning a room part way)

Hopefully one thing can lead to another for me.

Sometimes it helps me to think about very little things that I actually like. It could be a cup of coffee or a walk down the street. These things are actually worth living for when you begin to add them all up.

I feel awful too. I thought I would be so much happier being employed. I'm so angry and upset and depressed with myself for continuing to be sad going from unemployment to employment. I don't have anything as bad as physical abuse in the past, but the point is I have had such a troubled employment history, that I work and am petrified all at the same time. I'm scared shitless of being fired. I'm so paranoid of making a mistake and getting fired for it. It's all b/c of what went on with me in the past.
I know I'm not supposed to think that way. I know that you're not supposed to be scared at work. I know I'm going about it the WRONG way. But my emotions are dominating my logic.

That's good advice, thepepperman

your life is very important. Keep posting and connecting with people who encourage you. Very good point to do one small thing and encourage yourself. then take another small step. sounds like a good time to see a therapist to help you turn the corner. Keep in touch. I'm a dog lover too.

I have found the best way to shoo depression and the desire to 'not do this' (live) is to remain very busy ... doing anything that is not harmful or illegal. VERY, VERY busy. No time for either depression or .....

I'm so sorry you feel this way. I have been there. A lot. And it's true what they're saying. Stick around for your dog. That's why I'm here. My dog, Daisy. I can't live without her, but I'm her whole world. If I left without explanation, just disappeared, she would never know why. She would never know how much I love her. She would always feel that loss. And your dog is the same.

I feel the same way so much. My father committed suicide so I think if he can leave it all behind how hard can it be. But it actually destroys the Ives impacted. I'm proof. I'm angry depressed ND think it'll never get better

I have to tell you I have been right ware you are ...and there is always hope ..today I am with ought depreshion ..so don't give up ......try go seeing your doctor .....and see what they can do for you .....I keep you in my prayers ...God bless

Yeah...been there, done that, and actually AM there right now....so I feel you...really, I do.

So the only help I can offer is this:

What about your dog?
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