Just a note because I promised myself I'd post soon -- I totally withdrew from the group for a while, was unable even to get myself to look on the site. After my best and only close friend died and then there was a major upheaval at work, it was all I could do to walk and talk there for a while. I did my best not to think, and posting and reading here means thinking -- instead I buried myself in a role-playing game online that was as far away from the real world as I could get. But Sunday I found myself considering ways and means to commit suicide, and while I truly do not plan to do it (consciously) I realize thinking about it that concretely is a really bad sign. I had a couple of extra minutes this a.m. before running for the bus so gathered up my courage to write a few words. I hope everyone else has been hanging in there; will try to get the courage to come home tonight and see what is going on with everyone. Thanks for listening.
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