Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I always had a dream of moving away from Brazil since I dont fit here.
I have some relatives in other country, where I fit just perfectly. So everytime I have a chance I came here, and spend some days having friends, family and everything I would like.
On the last september on a visit I met a colombian guy, and we started to hanging out and finally dating. I put my defenses down, and fell in love with him. And I know that the feels the same. Then he become my dream part two lets say.
I went back home and started to try to move. Got dennied 2 times. It broke me down. Since I have everything needed to be approved.
This denials started to break me. So I took some vacation and came here to celebrate his birthday. And we broke up. Because long distance relationships arent easy. In his words thats no point of that, sure we can talk everyday, play and stuff but Its not the same. I understand that perfectly. He said he wants to stay near, cuz he likes me very much, but I dont know if its better having him around knowing that we cant be together
So now I lost my both dreams. And my will to live because if I cant reach my dreams, whats the purpose of everything, like working, deal with things or even feel the pain of a dental treatment for example, if I'm condenned to live where I dont have family, friends or anything just because my taste of music, style of life, ethics and morals arent the same as the other people?
On the other hand I want to antecipate the date of my flight cause the only thing I want right now its my own bed, where I want to be just watching the time goes by.
I know its deep depression. I'm on medication and therapy and acunpulture, but since I cant change the problem nothing really help. I used to have hope at least. Now... I lost even that, and to be honest I dont see any light anymore. I'm having a lot of suicidal thoughts as the only way out but I know I dont have courage of doing it.
Sorry for the long post. I'm very confused right now. I dont know what to do or even where I'll find strenght to keep going.
However, don’t let a guy make or break your dreams.
You are in charge, nobody else. Become a nurse and come to the USA!
https://www.cgfns.org/country/brazil/
On your own !