But isn't what you want a way to happy AND awake? Don't you want a life that is worth living, not want you consider hell and that you must sleep to escape?

I'm sure you already know that regularly mixing alcohol with the medications you are taking is not good for you and is not going to help you in the long run.

Please talk to your doctor about how you feel, your sleep difficulties, and how unhappy you are at home. Is there specialized transportation you can use to get to and from a partial hospitalization program or clubhouse? Perhaps inpatient care would be good to get you stabilized on medications and to have some intensive therapy and activities, and planning for after-care so you don't return to the same situation after you leave the hospital.

Please do not give up and decide there is nothing else that can be done. You will have to keep fighting for yourself and what you need, but you can get to a better place, a better life.

I couldn`t believe that 48 hours of sleep 3 times in 1 week is 144 hours. there is only 168 hours in a week. I have only been awake 24 hours in the past week. I plan on sleeping til friday.

Mikail, this might feel good right now but pretty soon you are going to start feeling awful by taking meds and drinking enough to make you sleep for 2 days at a time. And the damage might be irreversible. People who try killing themselves slowly don't always succeed...and the pain will then be intolerable. Please rethink this and consider Debah's advice -- I think you might need inpatient care, something very intensive and positive. I'm so sorry you've been struggling for so long. (((HUGS)))

I`ve already been inpatient 5 days and partial inpatient 2 weeks and I`m still really depressed.The pdoc in the hospital almost jkilled me with 180mg og geodon in one dose. They rushed me to Henery Ford west becase the Geodon Gave me severe heart palpitaions. It took 6 liters of saline to flush the geodon outof my blood. When I got back to the psych hospital he had me on Lithium at day and haloparadol at night. Quoting from the pill book "When Lithium Carbanate is combined with haloperidol. Weakness,tiredness,fever or confusion may result. In some people these eymtons are followed by permenant brain damage." This is the Pdoc I was stuck with for 5 days of inpatient. Would you trust a pdoc that almobt gives you a heart attack or permenat braen damage. I trust my family doctot he is a MD and prescribe all my physica and psychiatric meds, I wc`nt go back Henry Ford Speacialty Hospital.

I slept from Friday til Sunday.I gonna see if I can sleep til Wed. Being on blood thinners It might make me sick or kill me. I give up. I`ve been dreaming alot about my parents and the new mansion they live in heaven. I am so happy when I`m there I feel loved. If I do die from sleeping to much so be it. Its not suicide.

You do not seem to be thinking rationally, and are making poor decisions about your daily life. I hope you will call your doctor today (Monday) and talk to him about your thoughts, your drinking, and your extended sleeping. I believe that you would feel better after intensive treatment and increased supports in the community to help you with housing concerns.

The concurrent use of Haldol and lithium is fairly common in psychiatry. As long as the person's blood level of lithium is closely monitored, there should be no problems. While you had a bad result with it, I don't think the result is because your doctor was not providing good care. I think it was just one of those things that happen to a few patients with every medication or procedure.

I am very concerned about you, and hope that you will talk to your doctor today. Please keep us updated on how things are going.

I have read a number of your posts about how you mix your meds with alcohol to sleep longer and longer hours. It does sound like you are very happy in your dreams but playing with your medication on purpose knowing or not caring if it may kill you is a kind of suicide. You wouldn't die of sleeping too much, you would die of an overdose.

I think debah is right in her post above. Give the outside world and any services they can offer you a chance.

I`m losing track of days. I plan on waking up again on friday. Really I just want to wake up in my dead mom and dads mansion in Gods kingdom. In my dreams i`m with my mom and dad in heaven. It is such a beautiful place. Then I wake up in hell my bedroom and my trailor. What the hell swine flu a mamade super virus is gonna kill over 1 billion people. If I`m lucky I will be one of them.

I`m in so much pain I jut want to sleep and wake up in my parents in Gods kingtom.

We all die when it is our time to die. It is something that happens on God's time, not ours. When we wake up in the morning, that is a sign from God that our work in this world is not yet finished.

Please, please call your doctor. Or go to the ER. Don't keep doing what you are doing. That is not life, and you DO have choices. You don't have to live like this. Don't just tell us here what is going on, tell someone in real life so you can get the help you need.

With the way you are misusing your medications and mixing them with alcohol, it's impossible to tell what your mental state really is. The medications might help you if you took them as they are prescribed.

Your life cannot get better with you abusing drugs to sleep for days at a time. It's going to take work, but you can do it IF you choose to. I cannot stress enough how important it is for you to TALK TO YOUR DOCTOR...TODAY or GO TO THE ER!!

your useing sleep to escape from the real world, which yu don't want to deal with anymore.
so, yu need to get into some therapy and try to live life the best yu can while getting help
I know its easier to just go to sleep and escape from this world, reality of all yur bad thoughts and stuff yu don't want to face or deal with anymore...
but let me tell yu sleeping your life away is a very slow death, and no noone will help yu sleep till yu die.

If I found a doctor l like Michael Jacksons I could sleep theoufg the winter and wake up in the spring. Would`nt be great to sleep when ever you want to and awake when your doctor waakes you