Depression Support Group

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I just want to die.

jaytay76
jaytay76

I'm still really lonely. Moving to a new city hasn't helped me meet anyone. I still look at myself in the mirror everyday and realize I'm not even attracted to myself. I keep living for the day that things will turn around, that someone will be attracted to me, that I'll live a normal social life like those annoying normies do, but it'll never happen. I'd rather die now than know I'll be lonely for years and years and years.


What's even worse is, nobody understands my pain. I know I can't talk about this with anybody because I'll be ridiculed. Therapy hasn't helped at all. I don't have the ambition to do anything with my life. Sure, I'll probably finish my grad degree and get a decent job and be well off financially, but that doesn't mean anything when you have nobody to share your happiness with. (Oh wait, what happiness? There isn't any!)


I told myself about nine months ago that if things didn't change in two years, I'll end it. Only 15 months left.

loonymoons
loonymoons
I know how you feel. It's really, really hard feeling so alone. I don't think a suicide deadline is the answer, though. I know this is hard to hear, but things will turn around in time. It can be so difficult to put yourself out there and face so much rejection, I know, but that rejection doesn't make your life any less valuable. You were put on this earth for a reason; you just need to find what that reason is. I'm still looking for mine. But I do know that every single life on this planet has value, and not a single one should be snuffed out before its time. If nothing's changed in 15 months and you do decide to go through with your plan, this world will have lost a truly special individual with unique talents that only you can provide. Please don't deprive us of such a gift.
Natasha0116
Natasha0116
I know what it means to feel alone. I currently feel alone in an alternative relationship where i feel like my partner rejects me constantly. At least know you that your loneliness will change once you meet your special someone. You just have to give yourself that opportunity. You are educated and are building a career. Use the money (after bills) to love yourself. Pay for grooming, get an outfit. Join a meet me group so you can get out of the house AND meet other people looking for their life partner too. You are a good person with something to offer. You will find someone who appreciates you.
Debbalina
Debbalina
We understand your pain. Never forget that. Come here and post as much as you need. There are caring people here that understand. You seem to be catastrophizing (if that the way you spell it), meaning everything looks like a catastrophy. I know I do that alot too. Thats the depression speaking. Times will get better. 15 months is a long time. You can make changes. Are you on meds at all? They really helped me. As well as talking to someone. Maybe a school counselor or something? That way you won't feel so alone. As far as finding a relationship....you are a very talented person. Don't sell yourself short.