I know that feeling.

Deep breaths alliegator, in and out. It will be alright, you can make it through this. We have all been there. peace and love, feel better dear.

get in line...

Please don't hurt yourself. Is there anyone you can stay with or talk to? Could you call the crisis line again or go to the hospital?
Please take care.

Hang in there. We have all had shitty day, weeks, months, and years. Just hang in there. They are people here that will help.

hugs hun

no you don't bunny,you're just sick of living this way,what can we do to help you?Tell us about you xxxx

hey whats goin on? what happenend? did something just happen?

Please be careful. Call a hot line please!!!

I sympathise at the moment, the feeling is creeping up on me more andmore lately, the worst thing is I'd probably never do it, so nobody ever going to care too much if I say I'm feeling like this. Hugs for you xx

i know how you are feel right now but at the end you will come to some sence and see that it is not worth it trust me on that if you need to talk i am here ok.

maybe u need to be put in a hospital?

You probably have a life force that is stronger than your mind's want of dying. Thus, for you it might not be not having the guts to kill yourself. I truly believe that when we leave out bodies behind we go to our true home with God. We visit with God and then God and we choose a new life to once again attempt to bring Love where Love doesnt seem to be. The only thing is though, we God and you might choose a tougher life to once again bring Love where Love seems to be. You might want to change your outlook about choosing to die I dont know.

Optimistically, I will see ya in your next post.

RICHARD

I really don't want to go to the hospital. I just want the depression to go away. But it won't nothing makes it go away. I have done everything I have been told to do/could htink of but I have still been suicidal almost every day for 7 years. I'm tired of feeling like this I am tired of fighting.

Hey Alliegator,
thats a great name! :o)

I'm just starting to think that everything in the whole world is crap and am asking my self "what is the point?"

But tomorrow i'm gonna get up and go for a walk or a bike ride, somewhere peaceful, perhaps the park or in the countryside and just tak look around.

Infact everything being shit Im sure my bike has a flat already so think I'll just find some comfy shoes and take walk and save yet more agrevation!

I'll take a look up to the sky, ( I love seeing a blue sky or grand cloud formations) and look at the trees and the birds. Probably the waves too since I'll be on the coast. All these things usually seem to help.
And to really take my mind off of life for a little while I'll take my camera, cos all the time Im concentrating on taking photos I seem to forget about the rest of the world.

Afterwards Im gonna come home and have a cuppa (tea/coffee) and sit down and work out what i need to do to sort my life out. One step at a time.

I have an idea of the steps already but just need to clear some space in my head to think!

Perhaps I have written enough already so I won't go on. But if you do wanna know what my next steps are then just let me know. Happy to share them.

lots of people there for you. You may not realise it. Just say hi and talk to a stranger in a shop and you might find someone that cheers your day up.

all the best.
Hug
Woo.