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I just want the pain to stop

RiverOfTears
RiverOfTears
I am feeling terrible. I keep crying. I've read what other people are going through and have been through and their experiences are terrible. I tell myself I should be happy because I havent had it as rough as other people. I feel so guilty for my feelings when other people have it so much worse, but I feel so much pain and just want it to stop. I am not suicidal. I just want the pain to go away. I dont think I have ever been happy in my life but there have been times the pain hasnt been as bad. Right now the pain feels unbearable.
etherize
etherize
Do NOT feel bad (easier said than done!) because you "haven't had it as rough as other people." Nobody can judge another person's life. Depression is hell, it's just as soul-crushing as any other serious illness. It doesn't discriminate; it hits people with "great" lives and people with shitty lives. And guilt is a part of it -- as is every other bad feeling you can think of.

I'm really sorry you're feeling terrible. I know how you feel, just screaming inside for an end to the pain. Are you seeing a therapist, or on meds? If so, has it helped even a little bit? Maybe you need a change?

{{{{hugs}}}}
RiverOfTears
RiverOfTears
Yes, I see a therapist once a week. And most times that is helpful - when I am there. It is when I am alone, which is most of the time, that the depression is at its worst.

I have tried a whole bunch of meds and not having any luck there. I am getting bad side effects and have had to stop taking the SSRIs. I am now trying to get back on the only med that helped a small bit.
etherize
etherize
I hear ya about being alone. The demons really come out then! ;) I'm alone most of the time, too ... I spend a lot of time on the computer to keep my mind occupied.

I hope you're able to get back on that med and that it works well for you this time. Maybe you could add something to it (a non-SSRI) that would make it work even better. I'm thinking something like Abilify ...

Feel free to message me any time if you want to talk. :)
WishKittie
WishKittie
I have definately been there. I carry that same guilt I think I have a great bf, loving and supportive family, I have a job that helps me pay the bills, there are ppl out there dying and suffering alone they are way worse off then me why can I not just be happy with what I have?

We can't measure our pain nor can we compare it to someone elses. Everyone deals with things in deifferent ways and handles situations differently. What seems like the worst to me may seem like good luck to someone else, it is all about perspective I guess.

Depression prevents us from being happy with what we have, we arent ungrateful we just have some pain to overcome before we can see the light instead of just darkness.

Best Wishes
deleted_user
deleted_user
One thing about any kind of pain: It comes to pass, not to stay. And when you share it with the people who understand this stuff, you get it out in the open. Shared pain is lessened pain. No brag, just fact. Your level of pain, and how you experience it has nothing to do with how great or how little someone else's is. So thank you for coming here and joining with us. You are not alone.