My depression has come back and it hurts. I was slowly weaned off meds because we were going to try for a baby and I really thought I'd be ok. A trigger, which is big change, has set me off and now I just feel sad, tired, anxious and weighed down.
I accepted a position for a job that I thought at the time was my dream job; working with animals at a no-kill shelter. However the hours are slightly unconventional and I worry about time with family and friends. I also feel like I'm making a mistake by leaving my current job. I do not do well with change at all. My therapist says this is a lack of serotonin talking. My husband thinks it's a good move. But I just don't feel excited. I try to sleep at night and my heart races. I feel like I'm wandering through a fog. Being at work doesn't help. It just reminds me of what I'll miss at this job. When my husband goes to work on days I'm off I just want to cry because of how lonely I feel. I just can't see positivity. I just want to hold on to familiarity. I'm just so, so, sad.