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I just don't understand...

BlueMom6
BlueMom6

About a week ago I lost my cousing due to a stroke. She was only 50 years old. I don't understand, I have had cancer twice, PE so bad the doctors had me in ICU for a week and I have prayed for years that I would not wake up in the morning. She dies. She was happy, caring, fun and a character to be around. I cannot find the justice in this. I still pray that I will not wake up in the mornings. Why? was it her. I was to go so bad. 

bethelbee
bethelbee
I'm so sorry about the loss of your cousin. There's no rhyme or reason one person is taken from this life and another is not... You are fortunate to have survived cancer twice! Are you in any pain or discomfort?
Thinking of you...
Onlythelonely
Onlythelonely
BlueMom, so sorry for your loss. Please accept my sympathy. I don't understand either. They say only the good die young. Sometimes it makes no sense to me. My great grandfather was over 100 years old when my uncle died at 43. My G.G. had such a hard time. He kept saying, "Why couldn't it have been me?" My uncle had two children 6 and 13.
I haven't always gotten all the answers, but in my search for meaning and purpose I came across a guy named Ravi Zaccharias on You Tube. His most watched video is called The Meaning of Life. He has written a bunch of books. I have read several and am reading "The Grand Weaver" right now. He is very smart and listening to him has helped my mental and emotional outlook.