I was already having a hard time with not drinking or using drugs. Then recently my daughter was in a bad car accident which I saw and heard. It took me a bit to get to her because I had to run on foot to the scene and I couldn't get there fast enough. Ever since I can still hear the tires and the impact and I get frozen in terror. I was at work tonight and had a very loud noise send me over the edge. Just now I was just sitting here and I am shaking all over and my emotions are out of control. I can't stand this pain any more. I want a drink and honestly I want to stop feeling period. I can't hardly type because I can't think and my hands are shaking too bad. I have to find a way to stop feeling.
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