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I was already having a hard time with not drinking or using drugs. Then recently my daughter was in a bad car accident which I saw and heard. It took me a bit to get to her because I had to run on foot to the scene and I couldn't get there fast enough. Ever since I can still hear the tires and the impact and I get frozen in terror. I was at work tonight and had a very loud noise send me over the edge. Just now I was just sitting here and I am shaking all over and my emotions are out of control. I can't stand this pain any more. I want a drink and honestly I want to stop feeling period. I can't hardly type because I can't think and my hands are shaking too bad. I have to find a way to stop feeling.
deleted_user
hang in there i'm here if you need to chat i've overcome my drug habit and understand the climbing the walls and wanting to go back to what you know
deleted_user
I just want to let you know I'm here for you if youneed to talk.
SwtLdyLvr
I don't have a bottle in the house but i have pills. I want to just take a bunch and go to sleep. I didn't sleep in 2 days and I just want to go to sleep and not feel
deleted_user
please dont do that you can take the recomended dose but leave it at that
deleted_user
oh god can I relate to the just wanting to sleep, pushed me to jumping about 9 weeks ago, but you know, for the first time today I am glad I didnt die, so there is a light out there, just try and hang in there a while, and use those that care, if you want to rant I have big ears lol, be strong if you can, if not find someone who is,
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accept and then type into the blue line then press enter
SwtLdyLvr
i cant accept. it wont load but i will try again
SwtLdyLvr
i already took some pills but they didn't make me sleep. i need to take some more and i won't have to feel like this
deleted_user
listen you have overcome alot worse than this so i know that you are a strong and very able person, you need to remind yourself of all that you have achieved for there are many its a shame that we couldnt get the connetion but i'll hang around here for a while for you
SwtLdyLvr
i used to be really strong sadsack but it seems like i just don't have anything left
deleted_user
i'm always surprised at how much more i can handle when things get tough, think of those that are worse of for there will be plenty, those that are caught up in war for instance, i'm just trying to get you to think outside of your self , sometimes i need to listen to music really loud with my headphones on just to stop the mind
SwtLdyLvr
is this how its going to be though, because if it is i cant handle it. i have been doing this for a week and it is making me go crazy. i did try to listen to music really loud because i wanted to get rid of the sounds of that wreck
deleted_user
I hope that your daughter is ok.Be glad that she is alive.You need to rest just take what is order soon or latter the body will shut down and you will sleep.Perhaps you need a few few days for you if you can but please do not tdo anything that might hurt you your daugther needs you and so does the rest of you family
rainyangel
Hey there, I know the feeling believe me. I've been saying that very same thing alot lately, I can't deal with anything anymore, don't want to either. Dealing is healing my friend. It really is. It doesn't heal if you don't deal with it, face it head on, feel it and it'll be ok. It doesn't last forever but if you bury it or run away from it it will stick around for sure. And then you'll be in an endless cycle to keep it buried. You don't need that, you dont' want that. Cry, punch something, listen to heavy metal music. get it out, feel it. don'[t be afraid to feel. It does pass if you face it and feel it. You're gonna be ok, hang on. big hugs for you
SwtLdyLvr
i guess since i took more pills than i am supposed to it means i have to start over on sobriety time now. if i do then i might as well go get a bottle. i can't be any good to my daughter or anybody like it is now
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