The old site was so much more friendly. (Well, apart from the one member who made my life so miserable I had to take a break......) But I can't cope without having somewhere to go that I can just vent. A lot has happened. My oldest son has had a child and is now a single parent which really means I'm co-parenting him. He's a beautiful, bright, pixie of a child and my reason for getting up in the morning. Because, you see, my husband is dying. He has ALS and it's the most aggressive type so he may not have much more than a year to live. He was diagnosed 6 months ago and already he cannot eat or drink so is tube fed. His speech is really poor and he has trouble breathing. My heart is irretrievably broken in two. I have rediscovered my faith in God and pray daily for his healing. He believes he will be healed here on earth but I can hardly allow myself to believe it. As if having to face the thought of losing him at the age of 50 isn't enough, I am consumed by a feeling of dread at the possibility of growing old alone, dying without someone to hold me and tell me they love me. I have known him since we were 11. Life is so unfair.
Ive been depressed ever since my mother passed away. My grandmother says it’s normal. I feel guilty for my moms passing and I don’t know how to get over it.
Ive sought out this website because three weeks ago, on May 2nd, my dad died. He was one of my best friends. I've had people around me die, distant cousins, friends from high school, and gone through a bit of depression myself. My dad and mom got divorced when I was 16, and I'm 27 now. My mother remarried pretty immediately, and my dad never remarried. I've always thought that he stayed in love...