The old site was so much more friendly. (Well, apart from the one member who made my life so miserable I had to take a break......) But I can't cope without having somewhere to go that I can just vent. A lot has happened. My oldest son has had a child and is now a single parent which really means I'm co-parenting him. He's a beautiful, bright, pixie of a child and my reason for getting up in the morning. Because, you see, my husband is dying. He has ALS and it's the most aggressive type so he may not have much more than a year to live. He was diagnosed 6 months ago and already he cannot eat or drink so is tube fed. His speech is really poor and he has trouble breathing. My heart is irretrievably broken in two. I have rediscovered my faith in God and pray daily for his healing. He believes he will be healed here on earth but I can hardly allow myself to believe it. As if having to face the thought of losing him at the age of 50 isn't enough, I am consumed by a feeling of dread at the possibility of growing old alone, dying without someone to hold me and tell me they love me. I have known him since we were 11. Life is so unfair.
Its my bdayI'm in a miserable place in my life. I've done alot of shitty things and I need change. Today was kinda shitty. Really shitty. I've not been on my meds (currently back on them) so my depression is extra dark. I just feel hopeless and worthless and like I deserve all the bad things in my.life .. yep
I just wanted to make a positive post to hopefully encourage people that things can and do get better.I joined DS in 2012 because of severe depression and anxiety. At the time I could not work due to these issues, I lacked higher education, and I had no friends. I really had no life except existing in depression.Fast forward to this year. I graduated with one college degree, I have a part time...