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i hate my life

Trichster724
Trichster724

im getting to the point where i dont want to do anything. i used to be lonely but now  i just dont care. i work a fulltime day job m-f and work nights at a restaurant 5-11 w-s. im so worn out but i desparately need money. i was in a car accident last thursday and totaled my car so i need a new one asap. im just so overwhelmed i wish i died in that accident. it wouldve just made things a whole lot easier. i have no desire to go out with my friends and im usually very social. i just want these feelings of absolute defeat to go away.

Jersey_of_Oz
Jersey_of_Oz
I understand feeling that way. I work 2 jobs. My husband lost his job. My car has been in the shop for almost a month. We are so behind on bills. I understand feeling very overwhelmed. Sometimes it is really hard to just put one foot in front of the other, but there are so many people that love you and are glad you are around for a variety of reasons. They want you to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I want you to as well. I am no good for money, but I will be here to support you in every way that I can.
Trichster724
Trichster724
thank you Jersey_of_Oz i appreciate the support. im so tired and i just want to sleep but my boss isnt listening to me. i told him to cut my hours back at the restaurant but he scheduled me my regular 5 nights instead of the 3 i told him too.
nightingale77
nightingale77
Hi Trichster724, sorry to know you are going through so much. How are things at this moment for you? Managed to get some rest or try talking to your boss about your situation again? Not sure how your local system works in terms of getting a car. Are you able to get advice from anyone? Take care and be well. God bless!
Trichster724
Trichster724
Things are still rough but they're improving (fingers crossed). My position got moved to a new site for my security job so I'm an extra 15 min commute from the restaurant which was a relief because now I have a legit reason why I can't work weekday nights anymore. From now on I'll work my day hours M-F and weekends at the restaurant until I can pay off my bills and then I'll probably drop the restaurant all together.
Turns out my insurance company didn't have the police report from the accident (which I was never informed of) and that is what's delaying my check. So I'll fax them that this afternoon and hopefully receive a check by the end of the week.