Glad it worked out for you!

BTW, I was afraid this was a clandestine ad for a resort hotel!

Was there a while ago. Where do you start.....My house isn't as bad as a hoarders but it was close. I never thought I could get it to where it was....I just didn't want to deal with it. I got brave and let my mom and my daughter take to my closet... I wasn't home that way I could not see what they got rid of because I probably wouldn't even remeber it. That got me into the mood to throw things away. Your living conditions can just wear you down. Hope you are getting the help you need!

Glad your feeling better,good luck with the new program.

Hi Mikail,

Sorry you've been having such a rough time. It's good you've still got a sense of humor. I hear what you say about your living conditions; sounds like it would be hard for anyone. I am so blessed to be in a good place now, with a good man, but I've been in some pretty bad places and with some difficult people too. Whatever you're experiencing mentally/emotionally/spiritually probably isn't based entirely on your situation, but I think things will get much, much better for you once you can get out on your own or at least someplace where you feel more comfortable. I hope the program at St. Johns helps you to cope better until you can move. Maybe if you can get strong enough to take care of yourself and not lose your mind in your current living situation, you will be able to shine a light for the rest of your family to follow towards healing.

Try to forgive; people do the best they can and if they are mean-spirited, that really is the best they can do. I have a hard time myself with that one. It's easy to forgive someone who is self-aware and wants to learn and grow and have compassion, but much harder to forgive a person who goes on damaging themselves and the world around them without any remorse or inclination to change. But I don't think that people who hurt themselves and others are happy. I know the damage I've done to myself and others has caused me a lot of pain. I think forgiveness and compassion are key to happiness, because offering that to others allows us to give it to ourselves too. It can open a place in a constricted heart for joy to enter.

I am putting energy into good thoughts for you, strength and love, joy and truth and beauty, closeness to your creator. Trust in the goodness in you.

How kool is that. I`m in the partial at St. Johns and for 1 hour a day I can use the computers during recreation time.

I have a real chance on being on the show Hoarders. My brother the obsessive hoarding on top of his paranoid delusional conspiracy theories with a totally negative attitude is the major cause of my long endured isolated severe depression. If you read any of my posts you can see the deep seated anger. Suppressed anger is what was causing my severe depression. One week at the Havenwyk Hotel and I felt good. Not depressed not manic. For the first time in years I guess that I almost feel normal. I need to keep throwing my brothers trash out and tell him it is my way or Hoarders way.

Can people get there from out of state?

I am in a partial program. It is great to get out of the Hoarders trailer from HELL. It is hard to get out of a severe depression when your hoarding conspiracy freak that thinks all that delusion crap is going to happen. I think he is paranoid and delusional with OCD problems. I have talked to the producer of hoarders the TV show but my brother does not think he has a problem. A therapist once told me if you know your mental illness a worry about being crazy generally your not crazy. If you don`t face your mental problems and think you are fine generally you are crazy.