Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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gerloff123 07/02/2010

I'm only 15 going on 16, soon. I've been through the severest depressions at just 12 and 13, and with treatment, it never completely went away and has exacerbated recently. I had what used to be referred to by the medical community as a depressive 'nervous breakdown', recently. I've lately had the severest depression, confusion, and disorientation. I just really want to end it, but I have to stay for my family. I first think of my mom, my grandma (whom we are very close to), my dad, and some close friends. I just feel so unmotivated and lost at the moment. I'm worried about my future. I plan to become a doctor if I can get out of this mess, but I feel worthless and have little confidence in myself. My grades have been what most people consider great despite the depression and confusion, but I'm not satified. I'm completely stupid, but they're a result of my diligence.

At 13, I began treatment with Tofranil-PM which mitigated some of these feelings. Then, Paxil was added to and helped somewhat. I sampled some other medications which didn't quite improve my symptoms that great or my restless, disturbed sleep. I'm currently seeing a psychiatrist who prescribed Cymbalta, Abilify, and Klonopin for sleep. The brain fog has lifted some, but I'm hoping that someone with experience or knows what they're talking about can give me some advice of some sort.

gerloff123 07/02/2010

Oops, I got on my mom's account and not my own. Stupid, stupid me.

deleted_user 07/02/2010

Your profile says Female, 45? Really, I think that is a lot of medication for a teenager. I think therapy is probably your best treatment. A lot of your mood may just be normal hormonal moodiness. Most know the teen years can be full of angst and strong and swinging emotional moods and resulting confusions on account of maturing and hormone regulation. If I were your parent, I would take you off all those drugs. Your brain is still developing in the teen years and I imagine flooding it with different chemicals and drugs intended for adults is not helping.

Try to stay positive, enjoy and pursue your studies and hobbies of interest, maybe join a school committee or activity and keep going to your family and friends to talk and for support.

gerloff123 07/02/2010

This is my mom's account. This was a stupid accident on my behalf but thanks. I'm sure what I'm going through is not normal, though.

MeggieLizzie 07/02/2010

This is my actual, newly-created account.

deleted_user 07/02/2010

Hey Sweetie, First off that fact that you think of your family and their feelings is a HEALTHY sign. I can;t stress that enough you will make it. Good grades do not equal stupidity It does mean your self judgement is not correct Reality is you are smart obviously. Try and get your self judgement to reflect this you show compassion toward your family show some toward yourself.You would not someone else so harshly would you. You post shows you to be passionate smart articulate kind mature and thoughtful.This concludes mr to think that with the right meds you will have a bright future. Taking a walk for thirty minutes everyday will clear your thinking and improve your mood.Scientfic evidence for this.Being around people is also helpful on the supconcious level, Facing the depression and accepting it takes some of the pain and emotional exhastion out of it Giving you more power over it. Also there is a site for depressed teens. check out the recommendaton site good luck YOU will make it through this.

MeggieLizzie 07/06/2010

Thanks, I've been walking a little for that reason. Then singing is supposed to improve a persons mood and mental well-being. I've been doing that, but I seem to criticize that, too. Friends, family, and people tend to think I'm smart, but I'm really not. I'm just diligent. People have told me similar things, and I really do hope you're right. I hope things turn out well. I have a psychiatrist appointment later, and I'll see how that goes.

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