PLEASE Don't. I know that life can be exhausting and when we look around us it is sometimes easy to see things we could be doing differently, but that doesn't mean you should stop living. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
You are wonderful just the way you are. Just because there is struggle now, does not mean there will be struggle forever. I believe that whenever a door closes a window opens. Look for the windows.
I also believe that we suffer so that we can help others who are suffering later. You are a brave and wonderful person who is meant for something in the future.
You are not meant to be other people. You are meant to be you. And you is the most beautiful thing that you can be. You are worthy to be loved.
:) Susie

Part of it is age...when I was your age I felt I needed to constantly be comparing myself to others to know who I was, but soon learned everyone feels I worthy when they compe themselves with others..,if they are being honest, because all anyone knows about anyone else is the pretty side the want to show, or we see in them our fantasies of what we want to be. But truth is NOBODY feels all that great about themselves and we are just normal. Anyone, anytime, including my self when I am down, should listen to Jane Seeberry's song " The gospel according to darkness". ...I believe it even on YouTube...so powerful....as if an angel, a therapist, the u,it ate nurturing mother, or your higher wise self telling us that when we look at others, things are not as they seem, and how we have within us the power to give birth and nurture ourselves into all we truly are. Sending hugs.....

Darn auto fill in! Meant to say...most others feel unworthy when comparing themselves to others, including comparing themselves to you!

I feel that people who look good have so many advantages. But it is something that I can never get. Because those lucky people are born that way. So i dont know how to feel any confidence in job seeking, or relationships.

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us @lotusroot.

I know that this may not feel like it's the right time to say this, but you are most likely a very beautiful, smart, and caring person. Although it may be difficult to see this right now, I can see that you are trying your very best to move forward with your life and the obstacles that it has put in your path. As a student, I can relate to your feelings of constant pressure to compare yourself with your peers and the people who surround you, but if you have made it this far in life and are still trying to make the best out of a crummy situation, then you probably have more resilience than you might think. In class the other day, we learned about the way in which female beauty is communicated through various discourses. If there is one thing that I learned from it, it was to resist the dominant norms of beauty and be daring enough to embrace what we were born with. Your parents, grandparents, great grandparents, etc., were most likely very beautiful people and the genes that they passed on to you is probably very beautiful as well.

I know it's a really rough time right now, but I appreciate the way that you are seeking some help and support. Please attempt to keep this in mind: You are beautiful. You are strong. & You are worthy.

Hope this helps a little bit!

I just left you a reall y long reply and somehow I lost it so this will be short and sweet I know what your going threw im there now andive been their the last 4 years please im sure you are a knock out beautifuful person you will get threw this I promise I would love to talk to yousome more about the way you are feeling soplease email me ckeller476@gmail.com hey if your up yo it you can cal me anytime your feeling sad lonely or just depressed anytime I don't care if it is 3 in the morning I am totally serious remember you ars notalone this site is great and now you have me if you me if you want remember also allthose people your talkig about can have worse problems than you I always say yu never know what goes on behind closed or you ar going to be ok hunny please reach out to me you have a friend for life Cynthia keller