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where do I start, where do I end.... I dont even know why I bother... how many layers of skin do I need to get through before I stop burning....
why didnt i come here first,,,,,,,,because i didnt think of it at the time. dont have the time to race to computer to ask for help.is so much easier to just do it and be done with.but i want to keep going.i want more.but its wrong.so wrong.why.why does this have to keep happening.now i need to make an excuse up about the huge burn on my armm before hubby and kids get home.i cant tell them.they dont know how i feel inside.they dont need to know.
anyway...HELP
why didnt i come here first,,,,,,,,because i didnt think of it at the time. dont have the time to race to computer to ask for help.is so much easier to just do it and be done with.but i want to keep going.i want more.but its wrong.so wrong.why.why does this have to keep happening.now i need to make an excuse up about the huge burn on my armm before hubby and kids get home.i cant tell them.they dont know how i feel inside.they dont need to know.
anyway...HELP
JulesHopeFaithLove11
now a panic attack just to top it all of
deleted_user
Okay are you telling us you burned yourself?
JulesHopeFaithLove11
yes..need distraction to stop
JulesHopeFaithLove11
what does it matter anyway...not like im gonna kill myself. so who cares.
deleted_user
why would you burn yourself....has it been a really bad day?
JulesHopeFaithLove11
no has been good this morning i tiook 2 year old to playgroup...just all the thoughts build up to a point and i cant handle it anymore...i have psychosis
JulesHopeFaithLove11
burning helps take some of the pain away
deleted_user
Sound like a great day to start with...Have you been taking your meds? Maybe that triggered your feelings.
JulesHopeFaithLove11
yes been taking meds, but only for depression..not for the psychosis
deleted_user
Oh sweetie you need to go see your doctor and get help for that....
JulesHopeFaithLove11
i know...but am hoping i dont need to go back on the antipsychotics..but i know if i tell pdoc next week he will want me back on them
deleted_user
But it seem like you need them. And if that is the case then maybe you should take them.
JulesHopeFaithLove11
but i really dont want to ...has been over 3 years without them...dont know whats going on now
deleted_user
well maybe you can have them evaluate you again and go from there...if you want to get better the only way will be through meds and support.
JulesHopeFaithLove11
thanks for taking notice and sticking around...hubby just got home and is angry about the mess in the house...so time to go get some motivation to get the cleaning done..
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