Thats it. I dont think i can do this. Losing the sight in my left eye. Yes its only losing the sight in one eye. I get that i am not totally blind.
I am going to lose my job and my jobis my life. It is my home it is my passion it is my marriage it is where i go to sleep at night and it's where i wake up in the morning. Its how i spend my days its how i spend my nights
it feels like someone lit a match and i am watching my entire life just drift away in the smoke and ash.
i am so tired of losing. I am so tired of rebuilding decade after decade year after year. Each time i overcome some new disaster each time i recreate and rise up and dont give up and dont go down the well. For what for another mountain
I just have to hold on til i can get home. Then it can be over and i wont have to fight or struggle anymore.
So they say people are suppose to be more understanding and caring lately. Like everyone is in the same damn boat as the rest of us. We all gotta wear the mask, yet I see so many not wearing a mask at all. I know I don't like em either. But I would rather wear a mask then die of Covid. Some people are so paranoid about going down a store isle the wrong way. I'm like, I don't care which end of the...
Depression and complete hopelessness has taken hold. It is really hard putting on a brave face for family and friends. When all I hear in my head is Goooooodbyyyyye over and over....its like this stupid singsong voice that tells me it is over and I am just holding onto nothing and that my inner everything is gone. So why when there is no hope should I keep trying. For every comment (in real...