Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Myself. I have workwd at the same job for 8 years startingbin high school and am putting myself through collage. I have an anxiety disorder which i have been working on all my life. I use to not be able to ask for ketchup. I cant go to the store by myself yet but i am getting ever closer! ... I was abused by my husband , went thru court to get a restraing order and sense moved on to a new good relationship. I had a counsling seassion that wripped up some sore subjects and i have been very emotional again.I havent cut myself in over 2 years but i am considering it again. Why?.... Because i feel like i am a failure ... and i cant get over it. Everyone tells me i work so hard and they dont know how i do it. I dont really understand how i did... But i always pushed forward because i wanted to have kids and now i am 25 years old and ... Having to slow down school once again and failing my non existant kids and my family all over again. i dont know hpw to live with myself and i hate myself. I dont know how to fix me.
Anxiety disorder ... OK
PTSD ...... likely .. from spousal abuse or even something before that.
One counseling session . triggering .. with no follow up. Issues unresolved.
Low self esteem ... duration unknown.
History of self harm (complex) with risk of resumption.
Self 'hate'.
So .. there is the package ... as I see it. Next question .. what to do about it. In my opinion .. professional medical care .... but it must begin with an approach to the WHOLE package. Can't get away with treatment ONLY for anxiety ... for example. There has to be baseline addressing the entire situation as it stands today.
Therefore, .. my advice is to print your post on paper ... as well as this reply, ... and show it to a medical professional (primary care physician?)
All of these things are treatable ... but the approach to it has to be well founded, .. and implemented. I think it is possible that the medical profession does not have the complete picture.
Good luck to you. A good relationship w/ a pro and hard work should give you a better life.