Hi there plenty of friends here.

Howdy! I'm a big ol depressed loser too, currently with no friends, but I did use to have a few.
But remember, EVERYone wants someone they can discuss deep feelings with, who will actually understand. Unfortunately, that's really rare. I mean, there's a whole movie genre about people looking for that. So you're not alone in that, it has nothing to do with you specifically--lotsa people are self-absorbed and too busy; some are just assholes.
And schools are always worried about the lawyers, first. They may secretly side with you, but know he has a better case.
Most schools, or at least mine a hundred years ago, have peer-support groups. I'd expect even the smallest schools to have a women's support group. Sure, you sit on pillows in a circle, but someone there might be nice.
And talk up that cop, maybe?

@Scrofula - Hah! You think I go to a good school! That's a hoot! We literally have nothing! We have a Black Student Union (but I'm not black, so y'know...), a girls-only Bible study group, and a once a year therapy session where random strangers sit in a circle and cry. We have on counselor, who has flat-out told me to just look at things from my abuser's perspective, and an therapy intern who's afraid of being my full-time therapist because I had to go out and find one off-campus because of the aforementioned real campus counselor. Wonderful school. Send your kids here. They won't regret it.

And I get that schools are worried about legal issues, but do they have to be so heavy handed about it? Like, can't they just understand what I've been through and at least TRY to be there for me? I mean, why is everything have to be about how "legal" something is? Whatever happened to just being ethically minded, or striving to be a good person? Why are people like this???

As for the friendship thing -- at least it's not just me, then. I guess I'm probably going to be lonely forever.

@Terriw - I'll try to find them, then.

Well, the sunshiny people would say, start your own group! And you called it "university" so I figured you were British or something. Must be a small school.
Anyway, c'mon, you'll be meeting people for several more decades before the darkness. Some of them will be funny, some nice, some at least interesting.
I had a therapist a while back, and she talked about fear of vulnerability, which I took immediate offense at, manly man that I am. It took a few sessions to realize she's talking about exposing yourself, as it makes you vulnerable. Kids in junior high learn quickly what happens when a secret gets out, and so the adult pursuit of rigid outside persona begins.
What I mean is, you sound like a person who feels more free at expressing those feelings. Many people become uncomfortable hearing about painful experiences because to share would leave them vulnerable, to hurt or gossip or their own painful memories.
So, next time, consider that you're not repulsing them so much as making them a little uncomfortable with their own issues. Maybe that will make it a little easier.

I can relate to a lot of your post. I had a hard time getting support in university, and have used imaginary friends to cope for a lot of my life. It sucks that professionals at your uni don't take your abuse seriously. Friends are hard to come by and harder to confide in ... I'm glad you're here and I hope it helps you feel a little less alone.

@Scrofula - Well, I'll be transferring next semester, and as there's only a few weeks of school left there's no real point there, unfortunately. I was just thinking that I'd love to form one, but I'd rather just leave the school, and knowing my reputation with the administration they'd probably think I was trying to form a feminist coup. God, they frustrate me. And it is a university, but only in the sense that people can get bachelor's degrees there and it has three masters programs. Overall, it has around a thousand kids. Its funding and arts program is pathetic (the arts program in particular being ironic, as it's supposed to be a liberal arts school), and its administration can barely communicate with one another. Again. Great school. Glad I've put so much effort and money into it. Gonna miss it when I leave.

I just don't know about the friends things, man. I just can't think of my life being any different as it is now. Sure, I know I'm not going to be in college forever (Papa bless), but I just don't understand how the quality of my life is really going to improve. The world just seems so dark, and people always seem to have ulterior motives, and if you nudge your toe over one freaking line, it's done. You're over. And I guess that apart of that is the whole fear of vulnerability, as you said. But I can't help but feel that there's just something sinister behind some of them, and I guess some of them are that way. I'm just having a lot of difficulty trying to discern which one's nice and which one's mean. I just don't know who to trust.

I'm sorry if I just took this on a different level than you expected, but, anyway. I mean, I do have a lot of insecurities about myself and making friends, not just who can I trust - like, for instance, I just don't think I can socialize well - but I feel like a lot of my problems have become something of a trust issue. I don't know. It's a bit of everything, really.

@Screwup - Wow. Yeah, your comment definitely helped. I mean, I'm sorry to hear that other people are going through issues similar to mine, because I really wouldn't wish this for anyone, but still. It's good to know that other people have survived this type thing Also, I never would have thought that someone else came up with an imaginary friend to help them get through everything! I was kind of afraid that somebody would stereotype me as insane. If I may ask, what are yours like? Mine's just a young guy in a suit. He kind of looks a little cartoony, but not? Like, he has Disney eyes, y'know? Anyway, he's a pretty nice guy. Pops up right when I need somebody, but can't find anybody. Pretty great.

I'm probably digging myself a hole and now everyone here thinks I'm not with it. And I'm okay with that.

(I've only been here a few days, and believe me, you're in the sane category).
OK, here's a vision to look forward to--once you graduate and hopefully start work, you'll come home and realize there's nothing to study or prepare for. You have no idea where in the season you are. "When do the kids have spring break? So I don't travel?" It only lasts about a month, but it's a nice feeling. And you'll have money to spend at nicer/hipper places where you will meet actual non-student self-actualized people. You'll at least have new reasons not to trust them. Kids hate to hear it, but even shitty colleges are a cocoon of disreality, and your eventual crash landing after will be exhilirating and horrifying, and completely different.

In that vein i think the dif between school and life is your level of expectation. In work uou get what you earn. Nobody has to be nice, the whole thing is transactional and your expectations are low. At school you are filled with expectations and constantly confronted with them not being met. Real life is easier emotionally because your sense of justice is not constantly taking a caning.

hey... sorry to hear that you are going through such difficult times right now and I wanna thank you for sharing. It's takes courage and someone strong to share. But it also seems to me that you have been holding it up for too long, being strong for too long. A rubber band will snap too when it has been stretched for too long. I'm glad you unload on this platform where understanding and support are evident.

You mentioned you have a therapist. Not sure how often do you still see her. It might be good to resume some sessions with her to clear up stuff that you find it hard to reconcile with. Think about it and press on. You are loved and very special in God's eyes. Keeping you in my prayer.