Hugs take 2 a day. you have joined a great group. It is my pleasure to meet you. I sure if we met in person I would find a friend worth being a friend. you are so worth far more than anything. after all Jesus laid down his life for us. Through Jesus I love you. I know I already like you.
I believe in blessings. we take things for granted. that human nature,
I believe ea and every one have blessing ea and every day.
I thank God everyday for being able to breath on my own, and that I can dress myself. I only pee on myself when I laugh to hard, lol
It is good that you know it cycle. I assume it has pattern. can you chart the different stage in pattern. I wonder if that is possible.
I know every June I become clumsy and always half tp go to hospital. I always accidently seem to brake toe bone. I know I have seasonal depression. Cold winter weather and short day light get me every year. I can tell when I start to become depressed. I start pigging out on crunchy type foods.
I plan for tomarrow and pretty much know where I am in process of stages of cycle. we can understand our own illness and how to use them to help us have some peace. for me it like start all over again each day but I know it just a cycle. It just a part of my life.
Sorry for ramble. I hope something in my yadda is benifitual.
ya I think I like you.
may you have better day. X

Welcome to a wonderful site with great people. Depression is so horrible and often times it makes no sense. We all understand... Please know that everyone here wants to support you the best they can. Hugs GB

I have been in a horrible depression for 3 years. It stems from losing everything I'd worked so hard at keeping for many years. I am searching endlessly for help but hitting brick walls. I'm sorry you're struggling to find the answers too! I use to try and try but I've given up. I'm sorry you're trying so hard and not finding the help that you need. Please don't be like me and give up. It sounds like you are incredibly strong, and I don't want the fear and depression to compromise your future or your health. Please keep reaching out. On DS, to friends/family, to professionals. There has to be an answer! Don't give up!

Welcome to the group. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I'm in the depression hopelessness spiral too. I also have severely low self esteem. The main difference I see between us is that you keep trying and keep working hard. The only piece of advice I can offer is to not be so hard on yourself. I know that's easy to say and hard to do. Just remember that no one is perfect, no one I know has things go exactly the way they want all the time, and everyone fails from time to time. If you're a perfectionist, is it possible that you're doing things well, but you're just not quite satisfied with the outcome? That's part of depression, we never think what we do is good enough. I just want to say that you should definitely not give up. Have you seen a therapist or tried meds?

Thank all you guys sooooo much for welcoming me to this group and giving wonderful advice and being understanding while doing so. You guys don't know how much I needed this. I honestly thought deep down that I was alone with going through these cycles of depression, but now that I know I'm not I don't feel alone anymore. I can't wait to participate more in this group and help others also fight what we've all been fighting. I'll come back later and more specifics it's kinda late lol Thanks again!

Simply say over and over to yourself, "I'll Handle IT', and in no time flat you will be the master of both your thoughts and actions.

ONE DAY AT A TIME SWEETIE............................
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welcom to the group ..you are right ware you need to be ...I will keep you in my prayers ..God bless ...very happy you found your way here ...

@admiral1cu I never thought about it like that seasonal patterns could affect you. My brother is always saying that it may be the weather I was just assuming that it was just an old saying and never really put any thought into it like that but when I think about I can't standdd when it's really cold. I hate it lol Thanks a ton.

@eshaw I understand how you feel as a I experienced a similar instance when I put my all into something and it didn't turn too much in the end. Pretty bad, a really, really dark time for me that still affects me know. And I won't give up, I refuse too, there's a reason why I won't (my dream) also thanks I guess I am strong :) I been told that before but I have had my bad days as others do too. I just keep hanging on, I'm hanging on a rope most days and tie knot when I think I'm gonna fall kind of lol

@alana and I'm sure being a perfectionist has something to do with it. It's ridiculous at times because I forget that I'm not healthy and that I have too give myself a break. Everyday's a battle with this for me it seems. I'm trying my best to break it. Yes I'm seeing a therapist she's good but where I live (Louisiana) the health laws are pretty bad, so like every 6 months to year I get a new one. I've had better ones and worse therapists but she helps me a lot. The meds I'm on are prozac, klonopin and at the moment they seem to work to degree. I been on a lot of typical others(remeron, trazodone, paxil etc.) before. I've been seeing a psych since around the time my mom died(7 years ago) and I had a pretty bad emotional breakdown, went to inpatient facility for a few days etc. That's pretty much when everything came down for me but at the same time I started getting treatment for things that were killing me so much.

@Mandy I'll try that. Thanks!

And thanks again everybody :)

WELCOME 2 OUR GROUP........................
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