Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I finally found an activity that really makes me happy. It's stressful, but worth it. Before this, I was just surviving... and feeling empty, and had no motivation. Now my grades are struggling because my sleep schedule is off trying to make time for this activity, and I'm so frustrated. I don't even know if I want the degree I'm working towards.I don't know what I want. Seeing my one class's grade has gone down over 20% just because I missed ONE class I can't handle that. I have to meet such high standards basically for the rest of my life with this career but what if I can't do it? I don't want to live without direction anymore. I want to do what I really really love and I think this is not it. I really want to do it, and feel I might be condemned to hell if I don't.. granted that's probably my OCD, but yeah, and if it didn't go well then I've wasted all this time and money on this degree.. it's like the walls are closing in and if I don't get out of life now I'm screwed... as much as I want the career I'm working towards I also passionately want to have children at a younger age than it would allow me to and I want to hone my art skills and develop this hobby (which actually has a good chance of briging in some money as well). I don't know. I just don't know. I jumped into this too fast i don't know and I can't change my mind again or Im a failure.
I really understand where you're coming from. I'm a college student myself, but I took a huge break before continuing to pursue my degree. I can tell you through the people I've met in the different industries I've worked in, one of the most astounding stories I keep hearing is how most of the people I've met are in careers that are very different from their majors. Granted, if you're aiming for a STEM degree or something super specialized/technical, I can understand your frustration too. It's never too late to carve a different path for yourself if something you thought was "it" is no longer serving you. You'd be amazed at how many people in the world haven't had a straight shot into the careers they currently have.
I know it's not ideal for you to make a complete 180 and switch majors, but is there any way to pursue what you love doing on the side as a minor, or even get a certificate in it? It's so incredibly important to balance passion projects with other work that you don't find as appealing so that it gives you the power to push through the discomfort.
I'm wishing you the best. Please let me know how you're doing!
Are there resources at your school for counseling? If so, take advantage of that help and all the helpers near you. You're not alone in this and the time to ask for help is when you need it.
I saw something the other day online which you may want to watch. Do a web search for persistence and a baby bear. Be kind to yourself