Sounds like you both need medication and therapy.

You have already been asked this before, but, are you and/or your wife receiving any medical care. I would recommend a good psychiatrist and therapist who can determine if medication along with intense therapy to help you through this difficult time in your life. If you don't get some help, your depression will only worsen and place you in a much darker place. That is what I have done many years ago when my depression became to such a dark place that I didn't know what to do. Having therapy and taking medication my depression has greatly improved. I hope you can find some peace and be in a better place.

My wife and I are on medication. I do contract work so I move around a lot. My wife moved to the Seattle area last week and is starting a new job. She told me she has a lot of things from her passed that she needs to deal with before we can work on our marriage. All of my depression and anxiety are from not knowing if the love of my life, and my best friend is going to leave me. We are 3,000 miles apart. I am hoping she will let me join her soon so we can work on our problems together.

Enzo, you got this. You're still in contact with her on a daily basis, and she said she just needs this time before she can work on the marriage. That's hope. I know you miss her dearly, that's normal, you love her. Maybe you can take this time to start feeling better yourself. Ending it all would be giving up hope. She just needs some time on her own, give her that. You know what? It would do her good to know you're going to be okay waiting. Hang in there and here, keep writing.

I am moving to Burlington, Vermont next month and then I am going to get my license to work in Washington. I will have the agency I work for find me some work there so I can at least be close to her. She has 2 children and they both love me. Her daughter is 24 and she has told me I am the only father she has ever really know or had, and when she's not in the hospital she goes to her dad's house a lot. My wife's daughter has a lot of health problems which I know adds to her depression. My wife's son is 25, blind, autistic, and hard of hearing. He calls me all the time wanting to know where I am and when I'm coming home. We listen to The Beach Boys!! I really miss them.

Keep in contact with the kids any way you can. Talk on phone, write emails and letters. Send cards, etc.

I call my stepdaughter everyday. My stepson is hard of hearing and it's difficult to communicate with him on the phone. He's blind so I can't write him.

I'm so sorry you're going through such tremendously tough times. Sometimes it can seem like there is no end in sight. Keep reaching out and keep making those changes so you can move closer to your family. Long distance relationships are tough on everyone. Closing that distance could make a big difference for all of you. Clinical depression is a disease and it is hard to remember that it most often controls a person and their actions. Please know that suicide is not an answer for anyone. It causes so much pain for all of those left behind. Your family needs you. I hope you will continue with therapy. I'm glad you reached out. Sometimes just telling others how you feel helps more than you realize.