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I don't know what to do

Money-M
Money-M

im 20 years old and for the past few years I've been depressed. At times I didn't want to accept it but now I'm trying to.. since high school all I have ever done is fail myself. I have no motivation. I was suppose to be the star athlete but the dream was destroyed by focusing on a girl and becoming over weight. For so long I've been somebody I am NOT suppose to be. I'm lost and I can't find myself. The past year has been the worst. My dad kicked me out shortly after trying to fight me. For years he told me I was "lazy" and made me feel like a piece of shit. My family doesn't understand what I'm going through. They think my mood is because I'm being a "little shit" or something along those lines. But in reality I'm broken inside. The worst part is that inside I know everything is wrong in my life and I know I need to fix things. But I always tell myself I'll fix it tomorrow and nothing happens. For years this has been my life and I I don't know what to do anymore. I've thought about suicide but I'm scared to die and I don't think I can do it. Mainly because I don't want To... I need help and I don't know what to do anymore. I need to change my life. I've wasted the past few years of my life and I'll never get it back. I'm alone now. Behind on my rent, phone bill, car payment, insurance payment.. I have no motivation to save my own life... help

BCat1000
BCat1000
20 is such a tough age. I'm really sorry you're feeling bad. First and foremost, you need to go to the doctor as soon as possible. You need to get checked out and figure out what is going on with you. It could be depression or something else. You are young. A couple of wasted years are nothing in the grand scheme, Reach out to your parents. Tell them how you feel, You need a support system in place right now. It is not too late to get things headed in the right direction.
Money-M
Money-M
I've reached out to my mom before. She has told me to see if I should get help with therapy or something. It's hard to go through with it because I always feel like I can get through it myself. Some nights I believe it and I'm happy other nights I can get anxiety and don't know what to do..
BCat1000
BCat1000
I wouldn't start with therapy. I would start with a good physical and blood screening. You need to make sure there are no physical reasons that are causing your anxiety and depression, There are several things that can cause these feelings. Additionally, you need to go to the doctor asap if you are thinking about suicide. It could be a chemical imbalance that needs treatment with medicine, Most people with depression take medicine with great success, You are here, which is a great first step. Seek the help of doctors for the next step. You can do it,
VictoriaBlack
VictoriaBlack
i understand how scary it can be. You are not alone. Help is out there. You are important and you matter. I believe in you! If you need to talk, I am here for you
Chekwas
Chekwas
Quite a touching event of your life at 20, It's definitely too huge to ignore.
certainly, I support seeing a physician to see if there are any health issues influencing your system but if you're diagnosed of depression, what you'll need is a working support system to pull you through.
There are effective support systems out there that does help tremendously so I suggest you get on one on time.
You're too young to get addicted to anti depressive drugs, lifestyle changes and programs that 'll re-program your current psychology will serve better.

Since you're here, I'm sure you 'll scale through as many here have already done.
redberry0v0
redberry0v0
i completely understand where you are coming from,i am 20 to and had really big goals and determination....but it all fell thru .. because kinda lazy and prioritized my time into the wrong things and person .....best thing i can say is work thru it push foward still make goals and push thru the hard times......

If we can get at least 1 good happy year before we turn 31 i think it be worth pushing thru