Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I know you guys are getting tired of m y post lol, but ever since I found this site it has been my outlet for my feelings, I really don't have any other outlet for my feelings, and you guys are so supportive with your comments! ............ A major struggle that has affected my entire life is dealing with homosexual tendencies. I don't know what your views are of homosexuality but I can only contribute a view from my life. I didn't choose these thoughts and feelings, just like you can't choose what day you are born on. This has been with me since birth. Growing up, my parents had me in the church and the church views homosexuality as a sin, but has anyone every thought how a young child feels when they hear this being preached at them and they don't even understand why they have these feelings. Well I am that child. From as long as I can remember I have wondered why I have an attraction to the same sex. My parents tells me its the devil and that I should ask God for forgiveness......and I have, but I still am not attracted to females. I've always been that different child, I didnt like the more heterosexual stuff that other males like. I didnt choose to feel this way and that's what akes my hurt heart because this is not a choice of mine no matter how much people say you make your decisions about your life. If I could control this I would totally be rid of it, but its not easy at all, and I have prayed, cried, repented, and asked God for help many times in my life. I just don't know why. This thought process has caused me to get picked on as a child, and to be picked on as an adult. I don't think its fair.....I dont want this but how do I identify my true self. My parents think I'm the worst child ever because I lash out at them and am very difficult, but it's because I feel that they don't love me no matter what they do for me because of the simple fact that their religion tells them that what I am is a sin, and an abomination to God. How can you cope with that knowing that your parents and loved ones sees you as a disgrace in the Bible. My entire problems in life revolve around me being gay.....I hate myself for it and I am severely depressed because of it. At times I just tell myself that I'm just gay and go with it. I put myself in relationships with other guys and they treat me like a whore....all they want is sex and make me feel like they love me, but use me and leave me. I cry because I want companionship but I don't get that.....and I hurt oh so much because of what this has made me. It seems as if my parents ignore what I go through to try and block it out. IT'S SO HARD ITS NOT CHOSEN, ITS NOT WHAT I WANT BUT WHAT I AM. I CAN NEVER ACCEPT MYSELF. I am in the army and that's more conflict because I have to hide myself, not only in the army i have to hide myself in the world. It's so hard to hide yourself in the world, because you have to make up so many lies to portray a person that you are not and it becomes so stressful. Even in the Gay world you have to lie and portray yourself as something else because all they want is the next best looking, successful, and sexual guy in the world, and thats not what I am. I really feel lost because I can't satisfy myself, my parents, or anyone................... I am totally lost but I try to maintain but it gets harder and harder as I get older........... I just dont know what to do!
Why do you allow yourself to be treated like a whore. Are you punishing yourself? You might as well punish yourself for having black skin, or being bald, or having a big nose. You don't choose those things either. If you did, the world would be full of bland people who all looked and thought the same.
I can't help you sort your dilemma with God, but as a human being I beg you to treat yourself with some respect!! You deserve to be happy. You deserve to accept yourself, and to be accepted, for who you are.
My last church repeatedly attempted to heal my son of Tourette's Syndrome. Without my permission, and eventually against my wishes, they took him out the front and laid hands on him to "cast out the evil spirits". As his Mum, I eventually took a stand and we left the church. I love him, accept him, and cherish him just as he is. Unconditional love is what each and every one of us deserves. I hope you find peace, and a love that you deserve.
Most business's have dress code that employees agreed to upon being hired and this includes but not limited to covering up tattoos and no green hair.
Did you know that kissing in public is against the law for the act will cause - excite public to roit and/or possible cause sexual assult. This law is seldom inforced.
I know not to go into certain bars and wear tee shirt that degrades reg customers.
everyone has to be careful not to excite and offend the mass.
What you do behind your bed rm door keep your activitys to yourself.
Again I dont want to know what people do behind thier bed rm doors.
you might not want to share your person life - sex life w your parents are others.
I have a tat and its no one business. even my dearest friends dont know I have a tiny tat. My compaion does and I trusted him enough to have allowed him in my life and w my secret about the tattoo. I know that he will not share private info. nor will I.
Do not allow anyone to abuse you and use you.
take time to really to get to know someone befor you invite them into your life.
I knew my companion for 20ty yrs befor I even invite him over to my home for a cook out. I knew him another 4 yrs befor I invited him into my bed rm. ( we dated for 4 yrs befor the invite ). It really takes 2 to 3 yrs to really get to know a person true colors.
I some what believe as your parents do but I also love you unconditionally though Jesus.
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