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I can't take this shit anymore.
I'm am so fucking tired.
I have been trying to pack up my now X b/f's shit and it is leaving me more emotionally raw. I want his shit out....the sooner it's out the sooner I don't ever have to hear from him again, since this is what he wants.
I asked my daughter to do one little job and she can't even finish that.
My son rolls out of bed right on too the computer.
They wanted to go get a christmas tree and I just don't give a fuck.
I don't want to have to clean up to make room for a stupid fucking tree that I'm going to have to drag all the decorations up from the basement and get them ready for the to do a half ass job on decoration and still have all the X's shit to pack up.
I'm seriously close to completely snapping and choking someone.
My pdoc thought I'd be fine at home and not in the hospital. I said I figured my mom could come and help. My mom couldn't come today and both my kids are sitting at the computer. I swear I want to go beat the shit out of both of them and make them work.
I am a fucking failure. A failure at motherhood, a failure as a girlfriend, a failure at living.
I hate life and wish I was fucking dead! I give up.
I'm am so fucking tired.
I have been trying to pack up my now X b/f's shit and it is leaving me more emotionally raw. I want his shit out....the sooner it's out the sooner I don't ever have to hear from him again, since this is what he wants.
I asked my daughter to do one little job and she can't even finish that.
My son rolls out of bed right on too the computer.
They wanted to go get a christmas tree and I just don't give a fuck.
I don't want to have to clean up to make room for a stupid fucking tree that I'm going to have to drag all the decorations up from the basement and get them ready for the to do a half ass job on decoration and still have all the X's shit to pack up.
I'm seriously close to completely snapping and choking someone.
My pdoc thought I'd be fine at home and not in the hospital. I said I figured my mom could come and help. My mom couldn't come today and both my kids are sitting at the computer. I swear I want to go beat the shit out of both of them and make them work.
I am a fucking failure. A failure at motherhood, a failure as a girlfriend, a failure at living.
I hate life and wish I was fucking dead! I give up.
i think that things have gotten to be too much for you and i think that maybe going into the hospital would be a good thing for you....you sound completely overwhelmed!!!
stay here and get all the support that you need, please consider calling the doctor ok???
calm down and just sit back and relax for a while and take it all it, do a lil at a time and then rest for a lil while...u don't have to do it all in one hour, ok???
Just laugh at yurself huni, look at yurself and laugh at all yur anger and impatience and then swing yurself down in the sofa and just dont let it all overwhelm yu at one time dear.....all these things take time...lots of time. xx luv yu hun
I thought things were getting too overwhelming. but on Friday pdoc thought I'd be better off at home with my mom's help.
Unfortunately, today my mom already had plans.
My daughter is still young and can be very demanding. I've had hardly any sleep the last few days. Yesterday the kids were gone most of the day and all I did was watch movies to distract myself.
Today I've tried to do a bit of packing but it just got to be too much. It makes me sick to my stomach that he just left me a note and left.
I don't know how on earth I'm going to get this all done.
I just have nothing left in me to do anything or give anything.
Pdoc has signed me off work, we were going to do one week at a time and I'm to call disability on Monday. He wants me off for at least a year. He never wanted me to get a job in the first place.
I just finished yelling at my kids. We've decided to settle for a pathetic artifical tree I bought years ago as a second tree.
I just can't afford the cost of a real one this year or the engery for the work involved in the upkeep of it.
yu know when I am tired and haven't slept, I just want everyone to leave me alone..xx