I am not very good when responding to a firm hand (on my last post). But I do understand now that I have to either be very specific or vague. I need to not put all my thoughts down and better filter myself. You all dont know my life and situation and I need to remember that when trying to confide in you.
So, for the last week I've become very down...I dont want to be disrespectful and call it deep depression...but it certainly feels like it. There are many things that I need to do, or would like to get done, yet I dont have the drive to do them. Today I dont even want to watch TV, which is highly unusual for me.
I have done some of the chores I needed to...but I cant seem to finish them. I'm going to be moving in a month and a half, but I'll be moving closer to my family (I love and miss them a lot). Spring term is comming to an end, finals are next week. Work has a lot of drama, with aa few departments shutting down, though none of it has to do with me yet. My hot water heater and stove/oven dont work (something wrong with the propane) but I've tried all the troubleshooting I could find and the tanks are full...so I need to hire someone to come out and fix it. I go to the gym at least every other night, yet I feel like I'm getting chubbier. I have been getting spotty sleep, and makes my eyes hurt. These are all possible contributions to my mood, that's why I mention it.
I liked it last weekend when i reorganized some of my house and made it easier to find stuff...and while theres still more to organize...i cant find the will to do it.
Please, I'm not good with a firm handed response, if you have something helpful to comment, I will listen. If you dont have something helpful, then please just ignore me.
i was trying to get through the day on a positive note and then i made the mistake of going into my mom's room and talking with her about family issues. wow, what a powder keg. i don't have the time or energy to get into the whole thing but it was bad. a bad screaming argument. basically, she is living with me because she needs my help and has no where else to go right now and because of...
Once in a while I read posts here, I see people would rather be miserable and stay miserable. I'm trying to not judge, but how can people feel better if they don't want to help themselves? I mean not feel better, just more like being comfortable. I know there's no cure for depression, it can be managable. If I'm wrong, please tell me. Thanks