Depression Support Group
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I have come to the conclusion that no one cares about me. Yes I still live with my ex but he sits on his computer and ignores me and when his son is down friday there will be 2 people sitting here ignoring me. My ex only cares about himself and the only way he cares about something is when it affects him.
My mothers bf and I argued the other night and my mother just took his side but when he isnt there she don't, she hates him so she says but why would she take his side if she do? I'm her daughter shouldn't I mean more to her. Well it seems I am second best to her bf, I am everyones second best. Im falling way below rock bottom here I am thinking about dying again and cutting even though I know I shouldnt, but it's the only way to get release. I don't like the feeling that no one loves me but they are all proving I am just something they have to put up with. I feel trapped. I want to die, or hurt myself real bad. ARRRGH I hate this. No one is there for me Im always there for them, I always try to do things to make people happy but they don't acknowledge it. Im fucked I dont know what to do. Im seeing things in my flat again and things are moving around in front of my eyes. I can't take this anymore.
My mothers bf and I argued the other night and my mother just took his side but when he isnt there she don't, she hates him so she says but why would she take his side if she do? I'm her daughter shouldn't I mean more to her. Well it seems I am second best to her bf, I am everyones second best. Im falling way below rock bottom here I am thinking about dying again and cutting even though I know I shouldnt, but it's the only way to get release. I don't like the feeling that no one loves me but they are all proving I am just something they have to put up with. I feel trapped. I want to die, or hurt myself real bad. ARRRGH I hate this. No one is there for me Im always there for them, I always try to do things to make people happy but they don't acknowledge it. Im fucked I dont know what to do. Im seeing things in my flat again and things are moving around in front of my eyes. I can't take this anymore.
I am so sorry that you are hurting like this.
Please don't hurt yourself.
Honey you don't deserve to be hurt.
Is there anything that you enjoy doing by yourself?
Movie, shopping....Whatever ?
I LOVE to spend the day by myself sometimes..................
I bet if you get out a little bit, you will feel better.
And who knows??? Maybe you'll meet some new friends.
And Sweetie, I used to see things too.....Don't be scared Okay?
It's just your mind playing tricks on you. Nothing can hurt you.
((((((HUGS))))))
And...incredibly sorry that your mom appears to be choosing her boyfriend over you. That's so sad. There are surely some issues there that we don't know about, but try and remember that people do the best they know how to do at the time. Not saying that her behavior is okay, hell no. But if you look at it as HER problem, not yours, that may make it easier to deal with.
Best wishes that you can find some peace very soon
I don't know what I can add to help, other than to say your not alone - I'm here if you want to chat...
and I so agree with everyone, grab a friend - go out shopping or maybe to a movie, pick up a book - there for a great many months I spent hours lost in them, they helped alot - living someone elses life maybe?