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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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AnonymousUserGirl908 09/04/2018

I can't cope . I am literally depressed and I am changing slowly but surely . I remember the first time I got bullied but this kid that I hate so much with my whole life . I see him sometimes in the town I live in and I just want to kill him , the hatred I feel for him is beyond imagination . Quite frankly I hate him and all the others that bullied me in the past I hate them all so much and if I could I would do anything to get back at them . So now am a grumpy kid . Who constantly feels like they are not good enough for anyone at all . I feel like I will never be good enough for people and I really don't want to live . I hate being home everything I do seems to be all wrong . One mistake can make a whole day change at my house , and I can get blamed for it like I am the wrong one . I once tried running away and no body ever even chased after me . They just looked at me like I was crazy . Every crush , has rejected me . It feels like no one cares about me and the one person that I have cared about for so long left me last year on this exact same day 04September . He left unannounced he was a crush of mine made thubgs so different and made my life so much easier . He makes me feel so wanted and desired and always had the power to . He came back in June and told me nice things including the fact that he would want to have children with me oneday and he sees a future wuth me meanwhile he hasn't been online since August 12th . Am scared he won't come back again . Cause he is the only one that can make me feel better about everything . I really love and need him . And if he doesn't come back on the day he said he would be in Town on then I am commiting suicide on 26September2018 cause I give up on life and he is the only one that can change the fact that I want to do this and I don't want anyone to change my mind I just wanna die . I keep posting on my statuses how many days to live and I already got the poison so 22Days to live today .

doncornelius 09/04/2018

Don’t do that. Call someone if you feel like that. You shouldn’t give up. Most bully’s are sad and depressed themselves. Does you friend know how depressed you are? Maybe you should tell him.

momenttaker 09/05/2018

Hi Anonymous, thank you for reaching out. I remember being bullied extensively in middle school and elementary...and even high school. It really can have an effect on one's self esteem.
Let me tell you that it is good to have friends who support you, but the more the better.

Do your parents know that you feel this way about yourself? Parents of teenagers can be kind of dumb, if you don't specifically tell them you feel like _____(ex: they don't love you) because _______ (something they said, did, or didn't do). It's not that they're necessarily actually dumb, it's just that they don't read minds, forget what it was like to be a teen, and are living in their own experience at the moment, which you might try to imagine their perspective. You will probably have more of an impact getting through to them by telling them how they affect you, than what is commonly called, "Acting out".

I wrote a poem called, "Do you love me?" to express how I felt unloved and worthless.

I'm guessing you are still in high school, if so, I'd seek a counselor and let them know what's going on.

P.S. If you give up on life, you give up on every potential you can contribute toward it.

sherril2291 09/06/2018

Have you ever heard the saying, "hurt people hurt people"? Those people who bullied you on the bus had to be so filled with pain and hatred that they had to spread it around. But the key is, what they say and think doesn't matter at all. Unless they are the experts on you appointed by you, then the mean words they said were just that - mean words. They weren't truth, so they don't matter. Actually, all they were doing were expressing how they feel about themselves deep down. They probably had parents or siblings who bullied them, and if you allow it to hurt you and stay with you, the terrible cycle just keeps continuing. Please, please, learn to love yourself :) Make a list of the things you love to do, and find other people who love to do the same things. Get better at whatever it is you're good at - writing, drawing, taking pictures, whatever. Serve at a homeless shelter and love on people who have less than you do. The absolute best way to get back at those who tried to hurt you is to become successful and show them that their actions didn't matter to you at all. And please don't kill yourself if some guy you met online doesn't show up -again, find people you have things in common with and hang out with them. Seek counseling so you can learn to see the beautiful person you truly are.

AnnieToman 09/08/2018

wow, what if he got delayed? and comes back to get you and your gone? doesnt sound like your understanding what you will do? it the one choice thats hard to change once you do it. , and poison is a horrible way to die. very painful. .so lets really look at this closely.if one person wants you at 16 and theres millions out there your age what is the chance he was the only one out of millions that would want you and you found him,, come on i know you smart enough to know theres lots more. and your not out of your teens yet, so your ready to hang it up now hardly even got into the game , better think close about this you get only one chance if you decide to quit so soon, you will miss so much and i promise you you will regret it if you do.

sherril2291 09/13/2018

Hello, I was just checking on you. How are you feeling?

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