I am a fellow Facebook fan. But I'm considering getting rid of it. I make really good friends but then I do or say something that they don't like.
I have a friend. She got mad and blocked me. Well me being not smart I got into a argument with her on my phone.
An argument unfortunately I started. It Was stupid. We were both using stuff we said against each other. I should have let it be.
By the end of it she had told me at least 3 times to kill myself. Something I would never say to her. But I wasn't perfect.
By the end of it we had fought it out and apologized. I did ok last night. This morning I was not doing well. I have schizophrenia. So my voices have been on overdrive.
I am not mad at her it was all said in the heat of the moment. I hold no malice. I know she doesn't either. I had struck a cord I didn't know I had.
I have struggled with things for a long time, I don't even known what to call it. I wasn't even sure what group to write in about this. But I feel lack of personality, and maybe that seems like a silly thing to be upset about. but sometimes I get lost in the thought that im empty, I'm just a shell. All I do on this planet is wonder is go through the motions, just doing what I have to do to get to...
I started conciling I've only been going for two week. But it seems to help tho she's wanting to open up old wounds and work on what my father did. And I weighed myself and I'm down to 110 and I have to force myself to eat. It's hard but I'm getting there hopefully I will continue to get better and that opening these wounds (that made me stop eating and cutting at the time) won't make things...