Sometimes it would be nice. Nice to hear from my friends "i love you" to get hugged by them, you guys can't even imagine how much i value hugs. to see them care for me, sometimes i would just like to hear "don't worrry, everything will be alright, im by your side always, i love you". Even from my parents it would be nice to hear that, but Instead i get hate from themfor not bein what they want me to, or tought i could be. Thinking about my friends again, don't you guys get me wrong, they are awesome people, too awsome for me really, but sometimes it just doesn't seem like im that important to them. Im sure they care about me but i dpn't feel lile im that important to them. And it hurts, because they are really important to me. Sometimes i feel like that if I jumped off a building they wouldn't even care that much. Is the thought of not bein that important to them that it hurts, because it just makes me feel all the more worthless. I just want som sincere words from someone, a hug maybe, am i weak for feeling sad just because people don't say that to me? Of course I am, and i feel stupid too because i never told my friend that i need help, that im depressed and that i cry myself to sleep, but somehow i want hear them say those words to me. Its like im crying for help but im keeping my mouth shut. All of this mess just keeps adding to everything else.
this is my first time writing to anyone about what i am feeling and its hard to try and out yourself its embrassing, but i know i need the help and this is me trying to better myself. I have not ate today i stayed in my room most of the day i just drank some water and that was pretty much it, im sad evryday and i don't know what to do or how to stop it, i just know i don't want to be sad anymore
Hi folks, I'm new. I'm 21 years old and struggle with Depression. Today I managed to get out of bed and do some errands though. I hope I can get some support and support those around me.