Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Sometimes it would be nice. Nice to hear from my friends "i love you" to get hugged by them, you guys can't even imagine how much i value hugs. to see them care for me, sometimes i would just like to hear "don't worrry, everything will be alright, im by your side always, i love you". Even from my parents it would be nice to hear that, but Instead i get hate from themfor not bein what they want me to, or tought i could be. Thinking about my friends again, don't you guys get me wrong, they are awesome people, too awsome for me really, but sometimes it just doesn't seem like im that important to them. Im sure they care about me but i dpn't feel lile im that important to them. And it hurts, because they are really important to me. Sometimes i feel like that if I jumped off a building they wouldn't even care that much. Is the thought of not bein that important to them that it hurts, because it just makes me feel all the more worthless. I just want som sincere words from someone, a hug maybe, am i weak for feeling sad just because people don't say that to me? Of course I am, and i feel stupid too because i never told my friend that i need help, that im depressed and that i cry myself to sleep, but somehow i want hear them say those words to me. Its like im crying for help but im keeping my mouth shut. All of this mess just keeps adding to everything else.
But - BIG BUT - sometimes these things also depend on your own willingness to reach out and tell people how you're feeling. They can't read your mind, and you can't expect them to. I can see that there is a fair amount of self-awareness in your words because you are stating that you FEEL like no one cares, and you FEEL unimportant, which is a world away from "I am unimportant. No one cares about me." You're obviously aware that your feelings aren't facts, and that's a really good start and it's a good leaping point.
As silly as it sounds, the best thing you can do is give that love you wish you were getting to your loved ones, and then to yourself. If you want your loved ones and friends to know you care about them, tell them. Just remind them that you're there for them, even if it seems awkward and out of place. And also make sure to remember your self-care and treat yourself how you would treat your friends.
If you feel too awkward doing this, sometimes it can also be helpful to make a post on your social media or something just saying you're going through a hard time and need to talk. See who reaches out to you, and if they offer their shoulder, don't be afraid to lean on them.
Your friends care about you. Please believe that.
I'm also always willing to talk if you need to!
I hope this helps and that you find the support you need here. Thanks for reaching out to us, even if you're not ready to reach out to your friends.